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Fake smiles and Bittersweet kisses (love hurts )

Member #30447 created: 2005-10-11 22:00:22Simple URL:   

Name: nicole

Steampunk Ariel for Anime STL :)


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Broken beyond repair

I have recently lost all faith in ever being able to trust another human being again. I took a chance and let someone in, told them I loved them and gave them everything I was. In return I was left heartbroken and crying, left alone and bleeding inside. The walls are back up and are never coming down again. The only person you can trust is yourself and I don't even know if I can do that anymore. I will never let myself fall in love again or get that close to someone. Emotionally I can't go through it again and I won't. It's just been one fuck up after another and I'm done.


this would be me^^

and im not goth cause i wear black cloths or like dark things thats just who i am so deal with it!!!!^^

i try not to be somebody im not so what you see is what you get. dedal with it or leave.

I dont like to limit myself to one religion therefor i take belifs from all. and i really dont like to be preached to so please dont even try, your just going to end up pissing me off thanks.

all in all im a laid back fun loving girl. so messege me if ya wanna talk im always up to meeting new ppl ^_^

i've fallen from grace

All i can see is an ocean of blood. spilled with my own hands.

Fallen Angel

You fall down from heaven,
Bleeding and broken,
Your wings are black,
You hit the ground alive.

I run to you,
I hold you,
But you get out of my arms,
And walk away.

You limp away,
My heart feels broken,
I cry blood.

I run to you,
And hold you tight,
I whisper,
And whimper,
At the same time.

I say:
"Forgive me,
For a fool is a fool and that is all I am,
Yet this fool loves you."

You stare into my eyes,
Yours are dark blue,
Your hair is brown,
You are deeply pained.

I speak again:
"My soul and heart are yours forever,
No matter what you may say,
For a heart is a heart and my love is yours."

You cry with me,
We hold each other,
This is the time,
Of our love forever.

Your wings disappear,
You're like me now,
We kiss for eternity and some more,
Our love is forever.

You are my fallen angel,
And I am your cleric.


I am a fallen angel,
Cast out of heaven,
Wings bursting with flame,
As I fall through the sky.

I am wounded,
On the outside and within,
Too many painful memories,
Such burdens that I bare.

I am lost,
Every path I cross is wrong,
And always has been,
I've never known where to go.

I am cold,
Far colder than ice,
The long years of love,
Have evolved into hate.

I am a lie,
The truth never coming to me,
All I've done was false and pointless,
I am a mistake to the world.

I am nothing, nothing but a mere soul that has been defeated,
So I fall...fall...and I fall...till I am no more.

I believe in destiny and that you can't change it. I also believe in reincartation
i don't believe you go to heaven or hell but your spirit is just put into another body.

My goth names are [Starless Darkstar] and flirting with suicide

Feel free to visit my room^^
my room

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(")U U(") copy n paste this bunny into ur house to help him take ova the world!!!

I love goth and rock music and I hate with a passion rap.

*some of my fav. bands are*

linkin park
the rasmus
simple plan
avenge sevenfold
the used
fallout boy
rob zombi
the pillows
and alot more.

Ain't afraid to Die
by: Dir en Grey

the way that we walked together back then is lost
yet always we were walking, someday shall I meet with you?

atop the gently sloping hill, the snow slowly falls I understand that I cannot reach you, yet
in your room, a single flower of the kind that you loved, is now...

the day of last year's final snow a promise firmly exchanged
when I remembered, it started to melt, and spill from the palm of my hand

atop the gently sloping hill, the snow slowly falls I understand that I cannot reach you, yet
in your room, a single flower of the kind that you loved, is now...

all alone by the window, just staring at the snow, while I remember you
through the glass, I recall you, and give you a final kiss...

hey smile don't cry anymore
from here on, always, I'll be watching you

atop the gently sloping hill, the snow slowly falls I understand that I cannot reach you, yet
in your room, a single flower of the kind that you loved, is now...

the brightness quietly colours the inside of the town white
you saw the season's final colours
a tear falls reality is cruel, isn't it?
you saw the season's final colours

the four seasons and your colours too soon will disappear
the snow melts, on the street corner, the flowers bloom
you saw the "hues" softly dissolving

the day of this year's final snow on the street corner, one single flower
when I look up at the sky, the final snow will spill into the palm of my hand


i love music. i play clarinet, bass clarinet, guitar, and keyboard.
~some of my fav. shows are~
all the csi's

~some of my fav anime~
gundam wing
wolf's rain
yu yu hakusho
blue gender
DN angel
angel sanctuary
one piece
better man
last exile
and pretty much all the others


anyone who wants to see some of my art cheak out
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~nicole's gallery~*~*~*~*~*~*
*my fav. movies*
Harry Potter(all)
Nightmare Before Christmas
Corpse Bride
The Crow
Blue Collar Comedy Tour
They look sooo much better goth. Plus the guys are really HOT!!^^
*my fav. colors are*
blood red
midnight blue
hot pink
and neon green

i don't smoke or do drugs. but i love to get wasted!!! ~FUN~

forsaken angels
a wiki full of beauitful fallen angel pics, poems, and soon a RP

yaoi lovers united
what more do i need to say

for wiccans and pagans

what type of killer r u?
~i am a~
you are a Ninja.
You are like a samurai gone bad. The good side is no longer interesting you and feel that darkness is where you belong. Though you may think you are the evil one, you're not. Because deep inside there is still that little glimpse of who you once were. You don't like to associate with people that much and keep away. In your mind they are ignorant and not so interesting anyway. That means you are a lonley person who don't trust people, and you have really no desire to do so either. Life is a big pain and annoyance for you and you aren't quite sure on how to handle it. Other people see you as mysterious and secretive, and that is probably right.

Main weapon: Daggers and throwing stars
Quote: "I hate people. People make me pro-nuclear" -Margaret Smith
Facial expression: Frown

well thats pretty much me and if you don't like it FUCK OFF and leave me alone!!!!!!

oh and by the way i'm loking for a vampire
i had a priminition about him
his name is draven he looks about17. He's tall and has short black spiked hair. he has his lip eyebrow and both ears pirced.
and he always wears his black trench coat.
so if anybody knows someone that fits this description please tell me

In Loving Memory of Blake A. Duckworth
        April 4, 2005
You Will Always Be In Our Hearts!

[----///-\\\----]Put This
[---|||----|||---]On Your
[---|||----|||---]account If
[---|||----|||---]You Know
[-----\\///-----]Who Died

[what would you do if:
1) I committed suicide:
2) I said I liked you:
3) I kissed you:
4) I lived next door to you:
5) I started smoking:
6) I stole something:
7) I was hospitalized:
8) I ran away from home:
9) I got into a fight and you weren't there

[One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."]

A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..

Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.

Guy: No, this is fun.

Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!

Guy: Then tell me you love me.

Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!

Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.

*Girl hugs him*

Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.

(In the paper the next day)

A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survive

The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

this is my fuzzy darkstar she is sooooo cute!!!'s fallen
lol check this out it is soooooo cool^^



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random nicole

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Phoenix High

Age: 26Year of birth: 1989Month of birth: 9Day of birth: 19

Gender: female

What do you do?: Being lazy

Place of living: USA-Missouri

Exact place of living: hellsboro

Known languages

Elfpack crew wannabe: Yes

heavy metalprogressive metalpunk

Other interests
card gamescarscats
role playingscifislacking

Civil status: single

Sexual preference: opposite sex

Body shape: a little overweight

Height: 157

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