♥[ Back.s.e.a.t ]{Deb-u-taunt}♥

Who

Am

I?

My,my,my....What a mess we've made of our little selfs these days

[Who i am]

:

     I really don't know.   I'm a little bit of [everthing] mixed up into one glass. Shaken...not stired. I've been hurt and loved all at once and i don't know what to think of it all. I want to be myself, but in order to do that i need to know what being myself means. People know me as a diffrent Girl, One thats just for show... not to be touched, just looked at and [veiwed] by the spectators and judged. But i hate putting on this "show"...I don't know who i am. I don't have a label...I have thousands, and i would kill to have one.   [Just one.]  To know who i am.
Thats all i've wanted, to be safe within my own skin and not feel so un-welcome by

who i am.

x.♥.♥.x



K[i]s[s]M[e],
like you did,

my♥heart♥stoppedbeating

[ x.♥.x ]
I am: alive 
I hurt: My self
I want: Perfection
I hate: hostility
I cry: for everyone
I fear: hate
I hope: for a home
I feel alone: and despise it
I waste: Time
I talk: loud
I break: the rules
I watch: Society
I remember: Warmth
I sleep with: Regret
I hide: my pain
I burn: memories
I Miss: innocents
I feel: Betrayed
I dream: of serenity
I await: peace
I live: to give.
I die: inside


I have no desire to see threw my own eyes anymore


♥Love♥:
Loving someone requires a leap of faith and a soft landing is never gauranteed.


~[*]~[*]~If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it. anything you want to, [do it]. Want to change the world? There's nothing to it.


[þ.L.Ú.R.]

Just this once, I need a miracle to happen…I’ve gotten myself way to wound-up to be disappointed to this extent; it would literally kill me…

♥

[M]E[M]O[R]I[E]S

♥

♥Gabriel May♥ 
[1987 - 2004]

I didn't really know you.
But emilia did and so did alary.
When i saw how they reacted to your death,i cried too.

People still love you here,and we'll never forget you.

Christina M. Wise 
[1988 - 2005]

♥I love you and everyone misses you.♥

If it stayed i'd never leave it 
If that turned around 
I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about 
I mean that loving you is strange 
And adored by me throughout oh no it's you again 
Someday soon you'll find that someone 
Waiting for the chance to beat you 
Drooling on the set to feel you 
Blessing you with every ♥kiss♥

Tying yourself to me 
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me 
So precious loving the thrill 
Tying yourself to me 
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me 
So precious loving the thrill 

[MY POEMS!!!]

[Dream painter]

Images flash to mind,
memories that don't belong to me
your smiling face from an angel never vewied
frozen in someone else's picture
album

My heart longs to take its own photographs of you
it captures fleeting images of your face in a crowd
or your form walking down the path
but theses are to stolen memories
taken
not received

I am a maker of collages
taking bits of others' lives
and pasting them onto my own dreamscapes
a circunstance like hers
a smiling face his
a place like there
and a time like then
they paint a beautiful picture
of a non-existent world
where i find happiness by closing my eyes

Poor dream painter
you-starving artist-
trying to feed yourself on art alone
trying to feed your hunger for love

yes, a still life bowl of fruit
cannot fill an empty stomach
nor can an image of dreams
fill my lonely heart
but it brings bittersweet joy
to my still life.

        -Jill

[MY LOVELY WIKI'S]


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[ Kiss::Kiss ]