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The Moon Cries Out (Your heart smothers me and it's hard to breathe)

Member #916 created: 2004-10-17 00:40:24Simple URL:   

Name: Aiden


You can make a million dollars
But you might lose yourself


Elfpack titles and orders
Crazy kid

I am really into art of all kinds I love black and white sketches so those I do more of. I'm also bisexual, and I'm proud of it. Like most teenagers, I'm a music fanatic. I am an easy person to talk to and my genres of music change a lot. I'll listen to almost anything if I like it, hell I could care if Britney Spears sings it. I love watching Sci-fi films. I'm in love with Supernatural that's an awesome show. I love watching [H]ouse. I find his personality hilarious. I really don't like talking to people who don't actually take the time to type what they want to say and use internet talk I only know one language and it's English so let's keep it that way. I don't like people that are immature or self centered. If you really need to know anything else I guess you will just have to send a message my way

Okay the things that I do. Yeah I enjoy art. I like to draw and more than likely you won't ever see my artwork just because most of it is emotional and I'm kinda personal unless I know you well enough. I like to read, reading is what I do all day pretty much. I enjoy all sorts of books not just one type. Writting is another hoby I have. I don't write much anymore, but am hoping to get back into that.

Religion pisses me off pretty much. I just...I don't understand most of it. I think the Christian religion is pretty amusing. You see all of these people like the Babtists the Catholics the Luethereans and Methodists but um....Aren't they pretty much all the same fucking thing? Except Jews. They say that Jesus was an amazing guy but he wasn't the son of God. Hey that's different! Eh anyway I mostly lean towards paganism. Seems interesting.

I love music. Music is pretty much the whole world. Everyone listens to music it's one of the ways I conect to humanity. I listen to music constantly and not just one genre cause that's stupid. If you listen to punk music that doesn't make you punk. Who cares what you're stereotype is. I still listen to some like...hip hop once in a while.

Okay yeah people say I'm going to live a long life of depression and they are probably right I have had a lot of pain in my life but I hate people telling me about my life. So....Yeah I may not jump around with joy but I can be happy. But most of the time I'm just calm. I have had a lot of personal shit happen to me that is heartbreaking and I really don't like talking about it kthnxs!

One thing that pisses me off okay, when people give themselves a title like goth, punk, prep, emo.ect. It just pisses me off. Or people with a stuck up attitude. I could really care less if daddy bought you the most exspensive phone or shit. Actually hardly anyone cares. Yeah most people would call me emo but I'm far from that. I have emotions. And really no one can be emo because emo originated from emotionless and everyone has emotions. If you don't you might want to get that checked out.


Lost Insanity

Taking in all my insanity
washing away all my sanity
By playing this game of pain
you lose all the will but to reign

Only in the darkness of mist
should I begin the endless bliss?
I am a ghost of my own past
only to take in the past fast

Laying down in my blood of sorrow
only holding onto the pain of tomorrow
Holding onto my scornful bleeding heart
Knowing only of what will tear me apart

A broken heart most say
but on what level they say
Why did you have to go?
I couldn't heal oh no

I flee to the field of innocence
why does nothing make sence...
Revieling to you, won't anybody listen?
trying to make the pain lesson

Prophecy means nothing to me
I am a dead and broken tree
I can't stop sleeping awake
nothing but a heart ache

And I wait for the end
you do nothing but the hearts bend
I can't help a part of me is dying
your dead and cold heart lieing

The battle continues in my mind
but come the end, what do I find?
My mind is a vast threshold
but as soon, it will unfold

I just cut my wrist like sale coupons
but I can't get the courage to move on
The nobodies...the nobodies
They want to be somebodies....



See this? Yeah this means that [eyes of frost] Is looking over me you better be damn careful what you say. *smirk*

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There are African Americans, Mexican Americans,
Asian Americans, Arab Americans, Native Americans, etc.
And then there are just Americans.

You pass me on the street and sneer in my direction.
You Call me "White boy," "Gringo", "Cracker," "Honkey,"
"Whitey," "Caveman" .. And that's OK.

But when I call you, Nigger, Kike, Towel head, Sand-nigger,
Camel Jockey, Beaner, Gook, or Chink ... You call me a racist.

You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you,
So why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?

You have the United Negro College Fund. You have Martin Luther King
Day. You have Black History Month. You have Cesar Chavez Day. You
Have Yom Hashoah You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi You have the NAACP.
You have BET.

If we had WET (White Entertainment Television) .. We'd be racists.

If we had a White Pride Day .. You would call us racists.

If we had White History Month . We'd be racists.

If we had any organization for only whites to "advance" OUR lives ..
We'd be racists.

We have a Hispanic Chamber of Commerce, a Black Chamber of
Commerce, and then we just have the plain Chamber of Commerce.
Wonder who pays for that?

If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships
... You know we'd be racists. There are over 60 openly proclaimed
Black Colleges in the US , yet if there were "White colleges" ..
THAT would be a racist college.

In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching
For your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights,
You would call us racists.

You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're
Not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride ..
You call us racists.

You rob us, carjack us, and shoot at us. But, when a white police officer
Shoots a black gang member or beats up a black drug-dealer running
From the law and posing a threat to society .. You call him a racist.

I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.

Why is it that only whites can be racists?

Now watch Im gonna be racist and click Post.

If you ar proud of your white heritage, then repost this!

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"Goodbye Goodnight For Good - Alesana"

Jealousy rears its ugly head
I won't forget the things you said before 
Goodbye, goodnight, for good...remember my face when you feel the pain

Help me to sleep...
Help me to sleep...

Now I'll fight with my eyes closed (with my eyes closed)
for the things I've let go
Sweet breath escapes...
choke on the lies that were your last goodbye
Hear my voice as you sleep...
Sleep tight, goodnight...
choke on the lies that were your last goodbye

Helps me to sleep without your memory
And my shattered dreams collect dust on what used to be a lie
It haunts me no more and now you're gone, you've left me alone
I wasn't wrong to feel this way inside so goodbye, goodnight, for good

Now I'll fight with my eyes closed (with my eyes closed)
for the things I've let go
Sweet breath escapes...
choke on the lies that were your last goodbye
Hear my voice as you sleep...
Sleep tight, goodnight...
choke on the lies that were your last...

I find pleasure in the taste of your decay
I anxiously watch you fade away

I can't explain what's happening inside of me
I refuse to fight you anymore
All I know is I have to make sure...make sure you never wake up again

Soft flesh gives way to trembling hand...

Beautiful eyes are sewn shut
Searing thread suffocates the light (the light)

Beautiful eyes are sewn shut
Searing thread suffocates the light (light)

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Teacher:"it is imposible for a whale to swallow a human"
Billy:"no it isnt cause johna got swallowed and went to heaven"
Teacher:"well how do you know he went to heaven?"
Billy:"ill ask him when i go"
Teacher:"but what if he went to hell?"
Billy:"then you can ask him"

Bill:*sees a 10 point deer holds his gun up to shot it and hears*
Wife:"aww isnt he cute!! he looks like bambi's dad!! like in the movie"
Bill:"yes but bambi is a cartoon now shut up woman!"
Wife:"Bill you arent going to shot him are you!!??"
Bill:"no that is why i brought my gun...for protection! like that deer is going to run up the tree and rob me!!"*then bill hears*
Wife:*yells at the deer*"RUN DEER RUN!!!RUN!!"

kissing girls come on isnt that just one of the hottest things you have ever seen!!!


elftown name: [Acidic Khemica]

Just somethings i wrote Hearts Of The Broken




10 Years, 30 Seconds To Mars, 36 Crazyfists, The 69 Eyes, A Band Called Pain, A Change Of Pace, A Perfect Circle, Abigail Williams, Adair, Adema, AFI, The Agony Scene, Aiden, Alkaline Trio, All That Remains, American Head Charge, Andrew W.K, Apocalyptica, Arch Enemy, Armor For Sleep, As Cities Burn, As Ember, As I Lay Dying, Atreyu, Baumer, Bayside, Bedlight For BlueEyes, The Beloved, Billy Talent, The Birthday Massacre, The Bled, Bleed The Dream, Bleeding Through, Blindside, Bloodsimple, Bullet For My Valentine, The Calling, Cascada, Celldweller, Chevelle, Chaimaira, CKY, Coheed And Cambria, Collide, The Confession, Cradle Of Filth, The Crystal Method, The Cure, D’espairs Ray, Dark New Day, Darkest Hour, Dead Poetic, Deadstar Assembly, Death Angel, Deathstars, Deftones, Demon Hunter, Dir En Grey, Dope, Dresden Dolls, Eighteen Visions, Ellegarden, Emery, Escape The Fate, Evanescence, Evans Blue, Every Time I die, Finch, Flyleaf, From First To Last, Funeral For A Friend, H.I.M., Hoobastank, Hawthorne Heights, Iced Earth, In Flames, In Reverent Fear, It Dies Today, Jem, Johnette Napolitano, Kamelot, Kill Hannah, The Killers, Killswitch Engage, Kittie, Korn, Lacuna Coil, Ladytron, Lennon, Letters Kills, Life Of Agony, Madonna, Malice Mizer, Marilyn Manson Matchbook Romance, Mindless Self Indulgence, Miyavi, Mudvayne, My American Heart, My Chemical Romance, Nuerotic Fish, Nickelback, Nightwish, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, Norma Jean, Panic! At The Disco, Papa Roach, Prodigy, Project 86, Puscifer, Queen, Queens Of The Stone Age, Rammstein, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Renholder, Rob Zombie, Seether, Sevendust, Shakira, Silverstein, Skillet, Skinny Puppy, Slipknot, Spoken, Staple, t.A.T.u,Thrice, Tourmaline, Underoath, The Used, The Veronicas, Within Temptation, Zao, Zeromancer

Your inner soul is calling for help! You always seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior, but in all reality you are hurt inside and bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you wonder why are you still here when there is nothing left? You use to once be a happy, loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and seems like it never can be fixed again. However, you have yet seemed to realize that there are people out there that deeply care for you. They secretly have a thing for you because they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest person in the world! You like to enjoy your time by yourself expressing your feelings through forms of art , and enjoy nice quiet scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary whereyou can hide out, hidden from those who gave you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have some fun! Never start frowning because you never know who's falling in love with your smile :)
You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No one really knows why your feathers are this dark, because you always conceal yourself with a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and you take it out on others and the world. In Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted and dead, because you were hurt so badly that youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings were white, and slowly, when your life was changing, so was the color. You have no friends, because you cant let anyone get too close to you. Grief fills your heart, though anger blinds your eyes.

this is my soul...As if you were born into a world of tears, you always tend to look at the darker things in life. Inside you crave attention yet push away society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn to things like the occult and mysteries, you spend your time daydreaming.
Darkness is your passion. You can't live without it and you're starting to turn dark. You are interested in things that others fear, sometimes using it against them. So much fun. You think you're pretty dark, but that ain't true. Better watch your back, real dark people may find it fun to teach you a thing or two about REAL darkness...

Age: 18Year of birth: 1990Month of birth: 7Day of birth: 23

Gender: female

What do you do?: Something in between

Exact place of living: Obviously no where you know

Known languages

Elfpack crew wannabe: No

grungeheavy metalhip hop
popprogressive metalpunk

Other interests
pornreligionrole playing

Civil status: involved

Sexual preference: same sex

Body shape: thin

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