I am so sorry for this rant but I need to get it out....

The stress of college is getting to me really badly to the point where I have to go into college 6 days a week just to catch up on course work and to study. I'm only struggling with two classes, Handling business documents and IT for admin. I am crap with maths but I good with english, and since handling business documents and it for admin have maths it in, I'm just getting all worked up and upset because I don't understand it very well. I mean I did It for admin last year but since am on an NC course the work is much harder. So yeah I just feel like a fucking stupid blonde when I get stuck and I feel fucking stupid about not asking for help sooner because I mean it's half way through block 1 of the course and to be honest I didn't want to wound my pride. Also my class and the NC business class are bitching and moaning about the mirco-tyco project we need to do and I just don't see why! I mean we didn't get the choice to do it or not because we got volunteered to do it (and I do have an issue with it) but I do like mirco tyco.*sighs* I just hate the stress and I'm worried that I might not progressed into block 2. If I don't progress into block 2 then I will get kicked out of the course....and I'm scared that will happen.

Now for presonal life *sighs*

The guys from my class last year is bugging me to go to his house to have dinner and a few drinks because, and I quote, "I'm intrigued by you and curious of your veiws", what the fuck?! Why on earth would any guy be interested in me? I'm a crazy Scottish gal. I ain't girlfriend material. I don't do very well in a relationship, I mean it's bad enough that I worry 24/7 about all my friends and family members , I do not need to add a boyfriend into that. I don't have the time for it. I hardly get to see my friends as it is, so how the fuck am I going to see a boyfriend? Yeah I got no answer to that question. 

Hey guys :)

am off to college to catch up on my tourism class :D I'll be back in about 6 or 7 or 8 hours :D

Hey everyone! :)

If you want to see the pictures from my wine tasting lesson then click on this link-------> https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.187954404618580.49852.100002120652197&type=3

OMG! I met this guy at the wine tasting last night, and he added me on facebook! :D He is sooo handsome, sweet, funny and smart! I'm smitten with him ^^ I hope he will be at the tasting this weekend! :D

Good news the Elfpack's Facebook Group is working again! So watch and fan it ^^

Had such a good time at the free wine tasting lessons at the Winehouse in Kelso! Can't wait for this weekends tasting! :D

Hey everyone

I only got two hours sleep and am not going into college cause I have the shakes and light headedness. She fuck college for today, I can fucking can catch up.

I'm going to leave at my normal time, go to the bus stop, wait for the bus and watch it go away then I', just going to walk home cause my brother will be the only one in the house when I get back home ^^ Evil plan and I love it ^^

I think I have a....date :O

I LOLed so hard when I read this!! XD

Hey guys :)

Well I've managed to finish my college essay on Marriage but I haven't managed to get my tourism course work done yet. So yeah it's good but it sucks big time. So I'm off to bed now cause am I tired as fuck and I have college tomorrow >.<

So night all!! :D

I'm sorry guys! I sooo slept in! I never heard my alarm go off and my friend text me saying she couldn't make the walk. So yeah I had a nice lay in :P

Hey guys :)

I've got such a busy day tomorrow >.<

Awake up at 6am and go onto ep
Walk with Laura and Robert at 7.30am
Cook them breakfast at 8.30am
Back onto ep, facebook and twitter at 9.30 or 10am until lunch.
Do my essay on pros and cons on marriage for an hour or two
Work on lay out for the Book wiki-page that I'm thinking of calling, Elfpack Library.
Then go back onto EP to check messages, forums and rpgs
Then check on college emails and hotmail

So yeah......I have a ton of stuff to do, but I will try and keep to my timetable. After my walk, if I am not back by 10am at the least then please tweet or facebook me cause I will have my phone on me :) OH! remember the times I have put in this diary entry are all UK based times.

Right so am off to bed, but I will see you all at 6am which is in 7 hours and 20 mins :P

Yay! Found out today via email that I don't have to go to the student rep thing tomorrow, because it was for staff members only. So it's all good! And on another good note, I finished my reflective essay on my Granddad's death, so I really hope I get a star for it lol :P

I will be on and off tomorrow because I have an essay on pros and cons of marriage, a powerpoint on the 4 P's of Tourism, activity 13-15 for tourism class to get done by the end of the week.

Also I am thinking of making a wiki-page about books, and when I say books I don't just mean vampire books....I mean non-fiction and fiction books. All different types of books, and reviews on them. I know it will take a lot of work but I'm just going to think about it at the moment :D

Time for me to go to college >.<

also I don't mind being left behind in rpgs, I can read all the past posts and catch up ^^

Please look at Fat and Proud & Michelle's stories! :D

See ya all when I get back! love you all!! :D xxxxx <3

Look at what I found! :D

http://www.whoohoo.co.uk/scottish-translator.asp

Night guys! I have a long day tomorrow and plus am mega tired and I need sleep!

Love you all! <3 xxxxxxxxxxx

Well my first day back at college and I have to say I really really really hate IT for Admin cause I don't understand it because the work sheets are just confusing *sighs* But Comms (english) and tourism class where very easy. I have a ton of college work to do, so I won't be online on Wednesdays during the day.

On Wednesday I have a student rep lunch thing in the afternoon but in the morning I will be at the college doing college work cause I have two essay’s, a powerpoint and two activity's to get done by the end of the week. So I might not be on much but tweet or facebook me if you need me! :D 

Time for me to go to college >.<

also I don't mind being left behind in rpgs, I can read all the past posts and catch up ^^

See ya all when I get back! love you all!! :D xxxxx <3

Night all :)

First day of college tomorrow, ugh! I wish the holidays where longer but I only have to live through two days of lessons then I have two days off then back to college on Friday then it's the weekend, so it's not too bad :D

Anyhow I shall talk to you all in the morning ^^ Love ya all, nighty nighty my darlings!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx <3 <3 <3

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Hey guys! :D that is me back home, safe and sound :)