[deathly ~*~ beautiful]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2005-10-21
Written: (6758 days ago)

hey everyone..just so you arent lie who the fuck is this..i changed my screen name...It used to be: a loud silence; but i got tired of it and changed it...later

28995  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-07-17
Written: (6854 days ago)

i walk throuth the strom out side
wish that everything was fine
tears roll down my face
he dissappeared from my life with out a trce
the thunder shakes the ground
the feeling or depression mound
i cry out loud, for you to come back
you dont listen,you dont even turn around
i dont want to lose you
i am not sure what to do
i fall to my knees
yelling out loud,
"please,come back,its you i need"
i am overwhelmed with greed,

not finished..

26706  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (6868 days ago)

furiously shaking
my heart beat racing
resisting the temptaion
i want to cut
to slice
to scar
i want to watch the blood drip onto the floor
why cant he just go away?
why cant he hear what i say
leave me alone
just go away!
i hate him more and more each day
why do i let him get to me
what did i ever see?
i want to hit the wall
catch me someone,im about to fall
he cant hurt me
he only only affect me
when i let him get to me
so why do i?
furious tears that he made me cry
i dont know why
why?
why does this have to be?
i hate him
cant he see?

26705  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (6868 days ago)

i dont think i have ever been this mad!i hate john and i hope he knows it!i was doing fine and that ass had to go and start shit wioth me again!i hate him!!!!!!!!!im am seriously shaking on the verge of furious tears and i want to punch something!!he told me to stop talking shit!wtf!!!me talking shit?um hello i think he has been looking in the mirror a bit too much lately b/c he has everything backwards!i havent said shit to him or about him!so he needs to leave me the fuck alone that sceiving little asshole!i never did shit to him even though he has hutrt me so badi het him!!!!i hope he dies and drops off the earht!!!i want to fucking slice my wrists open and watch them bleed rite now and feel the pain bleeding out of me!my wrist is knumb from snapping a rubberband on it so hard so manyt times!i kept my promises and never hurt him!never!!!and i dont know why he thinks he has to came and start shit with me rite now !!i was doing fine!i was happy and i was great and thenn h e had just had to message me and now i want to castrate the mother fucker i know he lied to me i know alot of shit about him that he dont want me to know and that he doesnt know i know!!!!!!!!i hate him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!he is the reason they invernted that word!i loathe him!i want to murder him and stranglew himmaybe he will learen afterwards not to fuck with a red head!!!!!!!!!!!

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