[Enneigard Rebirth]'s diary
i decided to post one of my poems from www.Creative-p
enjoy....or at least TRY to
××× ŧõ mŷ mũŧĭĿâţēđ âńĝėĿīč Ĺŏvē...×××
i hide behind a smile & of an image of a friend
wishing this horrid pain would seize & end
no one would ever understand this torture
while everyone gives into it like pop culture
so i set my own heart on a bottle of propane
knowing that my true love was slain
that was the match that ignited my pain
with screwed up thoughts tearing apart my brain
wrap barbwire around my neck & hang from the ceiling
stab myself with a knife, i dont need this darkened feeling
she was shot to death because of me
im a hopeless abomination, dont you agree?
shut myself away from sociality to feel the darkness
because i deserve it, i am ugly & hopeless
please forgive me my love, i have failed you
your soul resides in heaven, i only know that to be true
i was supposed to protect you in this complicated tangle
i am the norevard, the savior of the distressed angel
i failed my mission & now i am damned for eternity
i am so sorry that youve been caught in this calamity
just another victim of depression's darkest side
with a tough brave image but a frail person inside
i already have it copyrighted so no one can do shit with it....
i think i should ask this one person but NO. shed never accept. shes not going anyway, & she isnt into my kind....
sigh....this sucks...now i dont have a date for prom....wait..
would being dead really be that easy? will going to hell or heaven result in meeting the one i miss & love? will my friends really understand why i wanted to die? no...nothing in this life is ever that easy...always a catch.....so we are forever to be split apart...
completed a work of art "enneigard vs. Malpasso" being entered in my Ze Art Of Enneigard wiki.
the hardest thing to see is to see the one you truly love, love someone else....
stab my fucking legs, slice up my arms, bite holes into my wrists, rip open my arms with my fucking fingers, tying my veins into knots while i wrap them with barbwire & jump off a fucking building into a pit of impaling bones of all the ones i loved & forgot with swords of regret stabbing through every fucking pore of my flesh is what the anti-christ wishes for my lifeless soul to end scenario...
(its not supposed to make sense)
BAD OLD SUNROSE DELETED THESE, THEY MUST BE PRETTY BAD THEN... SO THIS IS A WARNING....LOO
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people are so fucking afraid of me
people fucking hate my existance
my heresy, my pain, my anger, my fucking emotions
time to cause fear & pandemonium on a little reservation called browning....th
-666
aria...