My Gawwd. I'm really starting to feel it now.
My whole life is going down hill.
I thought it was bad at the beginning, but it was nothing.
Not compared to this.
I HATE MYSELF. I try to make myself believe I don't.
People can tell me all they want. It won't work.
I saw you slipping. But I was too stubborn to pull you back.
Thinking in the end everything would be ok.
That I always get my way.
You proved me wrong.
I'm fucking up my school work.
My friends are beginning to see the me.
The me I never wanted them to even suspect was real.
I'm beggining to wonder why I bother?
What's truely keeping me here?
It may sound horrible, but it's not my friends, not my family.
No one understands ME anymore.
They understand who I wanted them to know.
I just want one person. One person to understand me.
One person I can tell everything to.
One person who won't let me fuck up again.