[rcfGravekb]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2006-04-07
Written: (6146 days ago)

Creature

Go, run away in distress
Try to hide from what's
Creeping and crawling and stabbing within!
Try to deny the turmoil inside
If you fight yourself hard enough
You'll never win any ounce of serenity
Or a calm hope at best
Or a calm hope at best
Can leave you heaving on the floor
Gasping for breath,
Are you gasping for breath?
To be left on the floor, gasping for breath

You're either the person you are
Or the person you're trying, trying, trying, trying to be
Don't let the outside sway too far
From where you want to be

And at any cruel moments notice
You can ruin the best
As your body is brutally pressed
Against the confines of your tense flesh
And if you close your eyes tight enough
Then none of the bad can get, none of the bad can get in
And if you close your eyes tight enough
Then none of the light can get, none of the light can get in
The light can't get in, the light can't get in!

Boom! You scream as the light hits you
It radiates throughout your whole soul
Boom! The pain is clarity, it cleanses
And if it still fucking hurts
Then you still fucking know,
That you are still alive
That you are still in control, if you'd only take hold

Boom! The day with both hands, a death-grip
And a good chance to outlive your past
Are you living free, are you living free?

You're either the person you are
Or the person you're trying, trying, trying, trying to be
Don't let the outside sway too far
From where you want to be
You're either the person you are
Or the person you're trying, trying, trying, trying to be
Don't let the outside sway too far
From where you want to be



Shameful

You should have ran for days
You embrace, you betray
I am sad to say, you're a sad cliche
But when you ran you tripped and fell
On a path that led you straight to hell!
This is the salt in your wounds
This is why I told you so

If you knew, what I know
Would you move, like you do
With malicious discontent you went about
hellbent to destroy but did you have a reason why?

Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
Choice and consequence, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and start over, start over
Here's to burying hatchets in those who,
You never call your friends, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and start over, start over

Can you breathe in, reach in and let it out
The evil inside, that's eating you out, tonight!
With every venomous move,
I will suck you up and spit you out
Get out of my life, get out of my sight!

Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
Choice and consequence, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and start over, start over
Here's to burying hatchets in those who,
You never call your friends, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and start over, start over

You let yourself get carried away
Don't act like your ashamed
You let yourself get carried away
Bow your head now accept the blame
You let yourself get carried away
Bury this with you a waste

And now it's time to see, what you don't mean to me
Now it's time to see what you don't mean to me
Now it's time to see what you don't mean

Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
Choice and consequence, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and start over, start over
Here's to burying hatchets in those who,
You never call your friends, we'll birth a new day
With the death of an old and....




Our Sick Story *****

When we danced, so prestine and
Knee deep in sin, balls deep in hate,
I see your face, I see your face
And it tears me, tears me up
My mouth is full of love
My head is held in shame

When you kiss me
Do you still taste her
Are you thinking of, are you thinking of me?
With your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
Does your body still scream my name
Does your body still scream my name?

Hold your breath to keep it trapped with secrets
'Till your turning cold blue with guilt
Still, no blood is spilled
Had I seen the plot twist comming
Would I've checked out the book
And even if I was dead
You would never be off the fucking hook

When you kiss me
Do you still taste her
Are you thinking of, are you thinking of me
With your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
Does your body still scream my name
Does your body still scream my ...?

Can you take it, while I fake it?
Can you take it, while I fake it?



Cross your heart, false your heart
Cross your heart, false your heart

When you kiss me
Do you still taste her
Are you thinking of, are you thinking of me
With your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
Does your body still scream my name
Does your body still scream my name?

Cross your heart, False your heart
Cross your heart, False your heart





The Theft*****

He bends and he breaks
If he gives they will take away
His passion, his pain, his grace

He exhales
A thousand black flowers explode
Into butterflies as they're away

Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush
And leave nothing that
Resembles a soul of a man
See him numb, see him crushed
See him numb, see him crushed
Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush
And leave nothing that
Resembles a soul of a man
Leave him numb, leave him crushed
Leave him numb, leave him crushed

Touched the fire inside one too many times
He's burning over and out now he flails
Up against the raging tides
No more fights
Everything you ever wanted to see
I see it in his eyes
One more time, one more time

My time to test the waters
My hands feel like they're rusting away
So I'll pace around like a lamb before the slaughter
I'll stay here, as long as you let me
Decisions, then, made obvious, and while we're in tune
Where I started, I'll stay there
When I'm finished
I'll wither away

Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush
And leave nothing that
Resembles a soul of a man
See him numb, see him crushed
See him numb, see him crushed
Rip them out, take them
Burn to coals as they crush
And leave nothing that
Resembles a soul of a man
Leave him numb, leave him crushed
Leave him numb, leave him crushed




We Stand Up

I'll watch the sun go down this fall
I've watched the night reign,
Please note that casual observers are always
the first to go,
So this is for me and my boys
We'll always play our part
To kick and scream
To be the ones you hate to know
I could never turn my back
Because this is who I know
You know all that is the truth
We are all we have
In a world that corrupts
Our struggling soul
You know all that is the truth

If you plead don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here
I will bear my heart to expose my soul
If honesty has a price
Then I won't fucking pay, dear
We will take our dreams straight to the grave

Choke on this and on my words
And on us and my honesty
It's of no consequence
Because I've see the opulence
The beauty I've held in my eyes
If only for seconds
What will never take away
What we have built together
Without hands, without hearts,
Without minds

If you plead don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here
I will bear my heart to expose my soul
If honesty has a price
Then I won't fucking pay, dear
We will take our dreams straight to the grave



If this is just in our heads
Then we'll keep on living the perfect lie
One day at a time
God bless our cheating hearts and damn your lies

If this is just in our heads
Then we'll keep on living the perfect lie
One day at a time
God bless us

If you plead don't do it twice
I've still got something to say here
I will bear my heart to expose my soul
If honesty has a price
Then I won't fucking pay, dear
We will take our dreams straight to the grave





Ex's And Oh's*****

You took me home
I drank too much
Cause of you my liver turns to dust
Cold rust takes cold creeping cool pain
Do you understand what I mean?
When you feel your soul drop to the floor
Like a whole like an open bleeding sore
Then you'll have bled like I've bled
Then you'll have wept as I've wept

Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's loose control
One false move; you took me home
One false move; you're all alone

But it looks so good and it feels so nice
I've paid my price
I'll cut you out just to hear you scream:
"Get away from, get away from me".
And I can feel my heart beat racing
As I realize what I must do
Get away from, get away from, get away from you.

Should've turned around like hell
Last time I got a taste of you
I should've turned and ran like hell
And I say we're through
Should've turned around like hell
Last time I got a taste of you
I should've turned and ran like hell
And I say we're through
And I say we're through



You've haunt me like a plague
Weakness, we've worked at
But I digress
After all this...
You're just like all the rest

Suck me down, it's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, let's loose control
One false move; you took me home
One false move; you're all alone




Your Private War

For my whole life, I have been burning down bridges
My only problem was foresight
I was standing on them, I never looked down
And now I am, knee deep in your bullshit
If you're ready for battle then I'm ready for war
So we can dance if you want lies
How easily we are deceived, how easily we believe lies

For will not run out of ammo, no more bowing my head
If every day is another slug, I will pull them out of my...
I will not run out of ammo, no more bowing my head
For every day is another slug, I will pull them out of my chest!

So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories, run your mouth, and tell your lies!

After all this time, don't wash my blood off of your hands
Let it crack and stain you, so the outside can match the in
Oh does it make you the fucking toast of the town
To pull yourself up, on those you're always putting down

So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories run your mouth and tell your lies
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories run your mouth and tell your ...

You cursed my name, burned down my house
As I bear my soul you cast your doubt, and I can live without

You're passing judgement, (you're passing judgement) with side long glances (with side long glances)
Am I spitting hairs or do I dare to say, you've had your chances
You're passing judgement, with side long glances
Am I spitting hairs or do I dare to say, you've had your chances

So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories run your mouth and tell your lies
So raise your voices and hold your hopes up high
Tell your stories run your mouth and tell your lies

Curse my name,
Curse my name,
Curse my name,
Curse my name,

Fuck!





My Fork In The Road (your Knife In My Back)*****

So here we are again
the same fork in the road
I hate you, you love me
This story is getting old
The days that I opened up
You shut me out for good
FORGIVE! FORGET! FUCK YOU!!
You are a liar and a whore!

So take what you want and leave
You'll never get another part of

I remember the day that I thought I would be free
I pour out my soul to you, expose everything
And I take it out
My heart is broke,
my head is lost in shame.
I did my best to drink you away

So take what you want and leave
You'll never get another part of

You are poison on men's lips
Lured in by the curves of your hips
Come here boy, stand by me
Look my way and have another drink
I should have got up
I should have got up and left you.

And I will never be your lover again
As far as I'm concerned we are not even friends!
This may not seem too suddle to you;
The point I'm trying to make is we are completely through.

So take what you want and leave
You'll never get another part of



You are poison on men's lips
Lured in by the curves of your hips
Come here boy, stand by me
Look my way and have another drink





Untitled Finale*****

You put a bullet in my head
Turned black thoughts to red
This could all end in tragedy

I dream of your death, lay you down to rest
I won't look back in fond memory

But time marches on like a soldier
Are you a killer?..I think I know what you are
A thief in the night and though it's taking me so very long to figure you out
You're throwing stones
Your glass castle is falling down
On top of your good times
I'm not interested in working this out

You put a bullet in my head
Turned black thoughts to red
This could all end in tragedy

And that's what you are
A sad plastic fucking mess!
Don't come to me with how you're tired
used up and just barely getting by
Because I would walk on by and not even, not even kick you when you're down
Though you would deserve it
because you are lower than the lowest dog
But this is the part where I say goodbye!
and let the sands of time blow over us
Say goodbye and let the sands of time blow over us!

You've never had to crawl,
You never had to see what it feels like
to be so trapped underneath
The weight of someones world
comes crashing down on me
I was longing to be free
I put the bullet in you and me!

This is my farewell to you and I
This will all end in tragedy
This is my farewell to you and I
This will all end in tragedy

This could all end in tragedy

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