[psychoflea]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2006-04-01
Written: (6086 days ago)

You know what sucks... having a broken heart. You know what suck worse? Knowing one of the people that can put it back together and make it stronger then ever happens not to want you. Damnit, I hate being single and i know i'm just going to hurt peoples hearts because i'm looking for that special person to fix my heart and everyone else that i date just doesn't feel the same way from how i feel about this other person.


9 fucking months and i'm still think about Heather. WTF is wrong with me???? I don't talk to her anymore.


Anyways, on to this girl that i'm so madly inlove with. We went out for a short while... it didn't work out. I'm not her type to make things short. We still hang out and stuff. I mad sure to keep my feelings in check when she was going out with someone else. I even started looking for someone else when she was talking about it getting serious with this one guy... well they broke up. We have been hanging out more and i found out that I still have huge feeling for her. Like this is fucked up but just how she smells drive me crazy! And her smile is so beautiful. When she laughs, it brings a smile to my face.


 This shit is killing me. I'm telling you, between Heather, this girl, and Iraq, This will be the death of me. What I wish is for is to win her heart... but its not going to happen. Man... falling inlove sucks just as much as falling out of love.

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Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6151 days ago)
Next in thread: 52779

So yeah.. life is geting better. can't wait to go to iraq. need to leave waco behind me and let the dust settle... A lot of shit has happend since i have came back and alot of it has been bad... its all god though... life will move on.. the planet is hell and i just need to live threw it the problems that come my way! Got a new Car. Eclipes with Turbo and All wheel drive! YAY!

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Written about Friday 2005-12-23
Written: (6186 days ago)

OH SHIT PEOPLE!

Where i'm at has shitty "slow speed" internet and my cell phone doesn't work here!!! I'll talk to you guys when i get back. Sorry to all the people i was planning on calling and talking to while i was gone but i can't. I'll be back on the 29th or 30th

Love Nick

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Written about Tuesday 2005-12-20
Written: (6188 days ago)

HOOBASTANK LYRICS

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

This goes out to a special someone. She knows who she is.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-12-20
Written: (6188 days ago)

<font face="Verdana" size="5"><br>
HOOBASTANK LYRICS<br><br>
<font size="2">
"The Reason"<br><br>
I'm not a perfect person<br>
There's many things I wish I didn't do<br>
But I continue learning<br>
I never meant to do those things to you<br>
And so I have to say before I go<br>

That I just want you to know<br>
<br>
I've found a reason for me<br>
To change who I used to be<br>
A reason to start over new<br>
and the reason is you<br>
<br>
I'm sorry that I hurt you<br>
It's something I must live with everyday<br>
And all the pain I put you through<br>

I wish that I could take it all away<br>
And be the one who catches all your tears<br>
Thats why i need you to hear<br>
<br>
I've found a reason for me<br>
To change who I used to be<br>
A reason to start over new<br>
and the reason is You [x4]<br>
<br>

I'm not a perfect person<br>
I never meant to do those things to you<br>
And so I have to say before I go<br>
That I just want you to know<br>
<br>
I've found a reason for me<br>
To change who I used to be<br>
A reason to start over new<br>
and the reason is you<br>

<br>
I've found a reason to show<br>
A side of me you didn't know<br>
A reason for all that I do<br>
And the reason is you<br>
<br><br>

This goes out to a special someone. She knows who she is.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-12-20
Written: (6188 days ago)

So yeah, I'm I like the only guy on this planet that gets used by females. Why Do i fall in love with the ones that just brake my heart. I thought guys were the only ones that played that bullshit game.
  So.. My Heart is kind of broken again. Its not as bad as before but fuck!!! And so meany people like me but they are in a different country, different state, Can't let go of there ex-boyfriend, not my type, just want to be friends, or other stupid reasons. I give my heart to someone, i fuck up, and they turn there back on me. The one person that starts rebuilding my heart, Distroys it because they cant let go of somethings. I'm starting to wonder if there is any good people out there. I mean for god sakes.. HOLY SHIT! This planet sucks!

  So depression is starting to kick my ass again.I'll be ok but fuck. What sucks is... I still think about the one person that will always be in my heart. Man, I just wish she would call me. I dont care what others think. I just want her back. Ether they will be with me, or against me. I sit here thinking about everything. I talked to shannon about it... and she say its her fault for not forgiving me.Its her lose.... if it is her lose then why do i feel so empty. I just want to go to iraq. I need to get away from this place. This city is kicking my ass up and down the street. I need a cigarette.... Trulfully, I would quit smoking if she came back. Man, I don't think i'll ever move on. its been 5 months almost.... and i try to move on but its still there.... Maybe I should just do it. Do it in a way that is quick and painless....i need a cigarette.

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Written about Saturday 2005-12-17
Written: (6191 days ago)

So, i'm trying to move on right. Everyone i meet is like, Your so sweet! There is a chick in Canada that is talking about coming down just to see me, another one in a different state that wants me to drive there, another is thinking about moving to one of there aunts places to get to know me more. Its GREAT! So yeah, I've stop being a Big ass hoe for a while. I've decided to hold up and wait for that right person again. I've had my fill of meaningless sex. Its just doesn't feel right. On a different note. I found out that heather has changed her look. She has a Perced lip and starting to look PunkEmo. All I have to say is that the heather i used to know, wasn't that kind of PunkEmo person. She was the Old Rock band type. If anything, she was a California type. She listens to Sublime and No doubt. She also like the Screamo Bands. They say she doesn't look good at all. That she looks ugly. Since i haven't seen her close up in a while, I couldn't tell you. Anyways, I found out that one of her co-workers, Stacy, who use to just adore me, she totally turned her back a friend because she felt she was just to good for her. Yes i realize this is a opinnionated fact... there is probly more behind the story then meets the eye but you have friends because you share the same intrests and other things. Seems like they have that in common.

Anyways, so i'm feeling so much better. Just the other day i drove by heathers work and didn't even think about her. I was thinking about when the mall closes.

So I'm talking to this really beautiful woman. She Siings, shes a poet. She has beautiful long hair.. i'm not into long hair all that much but holy cow... let me tell you, this fits her. Her Father was a Marine so i know i'll have some brownie points if i ever do see him. We have alot in common. Its great. We are going on a date on saturday. Going out to eat and to see King Kong! IT HAS JACK BLACK IN IT. It must be good! If the date goes good, we might just hang out alittle bit. Go out to the Park or something.

check her out. shes beautiful. http://www.myspace.com/bethany_edwina

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Written about Saturday 2005-12-10
Written: (6198 days ago)

Loosing my Grip: Hoobastank

Another night follows the day
Like a child does to it's mother
And everywhere I look I see your face
On the face of others
And I can't escape the pain

Of all the questions I went through
I never told myself the truth
[I turned my back on you and me
'Cause I was scared to see
That we weren't who we used to be

So now I'm trying hard to let go
Let you go, but I can't seem to loosen my grip
Trying hard to let go, let you go, let you go, let you go, go




I feel an emptiness inside
A part of me already died
When I pretended to go on
Like everything's okay
Then all we built began to fall
As I began to lose it all
I shut my eyes to set me free
'Cause I was scared to see
That we weren't who we used to be

So now I'm trying hard to let go
Let you go, but I can't seem to loosen my grip
Trying hard to let go, let you go, let you go, let you go, go

You're all that I ever wanted
You're everything that I need
But now it's finally over
Time for goodbyes, I'm needed

So now I'm trying hard to let go
Let you go, but I can't seem to loosen my grip
Trying hard to let go, let you go,
let you go, let you go, go

I'm trying hard to let go (let you go, let you go) let you go, go

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Written about Saturday 2005-12-10
Written: (6198 days ago)

Me and Shannon Broke up. It seems we where on the wrong page. I was looking for a long term relationship and a serious one... but there where feelings that where not the same. Oh well.

Seems i can't even listen to my own advice. The little salvation that i had, i couldn't keep it even in moderation...and i lost it. Now here comes back the memories that hunted me.

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Written about Monday 2005-12-05
Written: (6203 days ago)

So yeah, I have been working my ass off. And my girlfriend works too. By the time we get off work, we are extreamly tierd. i have not seen her in a few days and it makes me sad. Its all good though, I'll see her later today! YAY! And I'm going to see her in a Choir Concert. Holy crap, she has such a beautiful voice!

  Oh shit... I haven't writting in this thing for a long ass time. I am more on myspace and writing in my blog more then going on here. I'm going to start getting on here more so that i can help with a Wiki page.

  So on with me life... lets see umm.. have a girlfriend now, My sister is in california with that Husband beater. I will kick his ass when they get back into waco... if they do. My ThanksGiving was crappy. My family that comes down every thanksgiving didn't come because my cusin was supose to go into rehab but signed himself out of the hospital and went off into the streets. He use to weigh more than me by like 30 pounds, now he weighs less then me. Now i can bully him around, and he can't do shit!
 Oh, so my ex-girlfriend was dating that army guy for like 4 months, and they were already talking about getting married... for some reason.. i took it real well... i thought it was very hypocritical of her because she was spazing out over one of her friends getting Married only knowning the guy for a couple of months. The new news on that is that they broke up. Casey text messaged me saying i was right, and that she played him. I tryed to warn him that she had a shallow heart. Anyone that jumping into a relationship right after geting out of a two year one has one...
  It worried me so much about them going out. I was stressing over it. Now if she gets another boyfriend, i woudl be cool with it. Man over the past 5 months, i've made some ass kicking mistakes. I burned so many bridges; fucked up so meany things. I hope i can build some of them back. I need to apologise to some people, but some of those people are not very forgiving. That hurts to know people won't forgive you. For god sakes, i'm only 19! First time i felt heart brake. First time to fall in love... they need to understand the sistuation.

  Anyways, So my new girlfriend; she is great. She is beautiful, she sings, oh man she can sing, beautiful blue eyes, short hair, short period, She came out of a big relationship just like me, and she has some of the same feelings and morals as i do about relationships. She has such a better grasp on love then most people i know. She doesn't just throw the love word around. I know she means it when she does. One of the reasons why is because she hasn't said it to me. She has such a huge Heart. Even though she has been backstabed a few times from people she cared about, she still stands by her friends. She would go threw hell and back for them. Oh and another big thing, She totally understands that there is nothing to do in waco! Alot of times, the best thing to do is just chill at my place and watch Tv or play video games. OMG, she loves the Sims, so i let her jump on my xbox and play some Sims and i let her borrow my Sims 2 game for PC.
  The bad... Well she really hates this country and this government. She wants to move to canada. She thinks that place is the greatest place on earth. You see, I'm A Marine, I love this country. I have patriotism. Like i know there are thinks wrong with this fucked up country but its a better place to live then most countries on this planet. And i know that there are alot of countries that are trying to be like the US. Also she smokes... Its not that bad.. but I told myself that i would quit when i moved on and found someone new. She thinks shes getting Fat... yes, she has a big ass, but so??? There is NOTHING WRONG with that. But the good in that is we go out and jog around and work out. That is something my ex would never do. I got Heather to go out running once.

  Well i guess that is about it for my life as of right now. Myspace i think is better so you could totally catch me on there more often then not.





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Written about Monday 2005-10-24
Written: (6245 days ago)
Next in thread: 39755

On june 1st 2006, I'm going to iraq

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Written about Friday 2005-10-14
Written: (6255 days ago)

I'm here... Fighting each day is killing me. Memories haunt me. They are no longer good. Anger fills my blood and burns my heart. But there is someone by my side. She is helping me and understands my pain and sorrow. I can tell there is a slight bond between us... I don't know if i should go all out and try to get her because i don't want to fall inlove again. That is my weakness. Falling in love. Its hard to let go. I have lost way to meany people in my life.
  Oh man. I need a cigarette. For you people that dont know... i smoke. yes, it is the only way to chill down when there are no friends to help... or there are none to be found. To explain myself more because i know some of you are like "WTF mate?" I know, i was always telling you to stop smoking because it was bad for your health, but since i can't smoke pot because i'm in the Marine Corp, then I need to find some other thing... that i can do... so i smoke cigarettes and because i dont' have anyone to spend my money on anymore... at least what little i have, I spend it on myself now and friends...and the random dates that i go on with other baylor chick.

On that subject... HOLY CRAP! They are so freaking hot! And some of them are really cool. I thought all of them where posers and preps but damn, some of them are laided back in what they want and what they think. Its cool. And they have a blast when they are with me. Some of them i can tell they really like me but don't know how to flirt with me because of they know that i'm still... in pain.

Marine Corp: Good shit. I'm so glad i didnt' Join the Army. But i'm not liking the reservest thing. I was only reservest because i wanted to say here in waco with some loved ones... now... the loved one is gone out of my heart and i can put full dedication in the corp.

well, I need to go. Hope everyone is having a good time at the fair with there friends and other special people.
Hannah, Your welcome for letting me ride on the Power with you.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-09-27
Written: (6272 days ago)

I've said my goodbyes, now i shut my mouth and wait.

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Written about Friday 2005-09-16
Written: (6283 days ago)

Oh man... I hurt. I feel the pain again. People, you almost lost me a few days ago. And early this morning... i felt that same pain come back... I had the same person that talked to me.. calm me down again. What i need to do is move on with my life. I'm going to move in a different direction. 

1.) Start school
2.) get promoted to E-4
3.) Get a hobby... maybe get a pet

I need to countinue to work on my life... even if she is not in it. Heather, I'll wait for you and I'm sorry... and i also forgive you but mostly, i am sorry.

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Written about Wednesday 2005-09-14
Written: (6285 days ago)

When me and heather broke up i felt the world around me crash on my heart. I felt as though i couldn't live without her. The pain was so extream, i didn't even imagine what it was to be heart broken until then. For a month and a half i tryed everything to get her back. I was on my hands and knees. The pain i felt was so strong and so unbarable that i tryed everything to get it away. I even lowerd my standerds and Morals just to escape it... even if it was for a little while. There was even some people that took advantage of me when they saw me.
  The pain i felt and the pain i feel now is different. Before it was as if my arua around me was going psycho while my body just took the pain. The pain hurt so much. There was another pain that went threw me more though... that was the feeling as though something was going threw my throat, threw my heart, then into my lungs. There were times when it was hard to breath and other times when my heart felt like it wanted to runaway from me.
  As of right now i feel as though i don't have a heart or a soul anymore. If I do, then i have lost it. I do not feel like there is a perpose in life anymore and i wouldn't care if i died, but i will live on. I am looking for my heart and soul if its still there. I think it will be easyer to find my soul then my heart because my heart is broken into millions of pieces and scared all over the place. I will survive. As long as i know how to love i know i will be alive. lol... I want to listen to cake now... I think i might put them up on my page again....

  But yeah, the pain i feel now is lonelyness... void... emptyness. I want to love again. i want to spoil a beautiful Goddess will my love... my Goddess has forsaken me. Now i must worship another.

  I am finding it more easyer to move on now because Heather is pushing not just me away... she has been pushing other people away that love her too and now she has just pushed her bestfriend away. So i feel that now i have company and the journy to move on and away from this Goddess will be easyer because i have someone with me in the same boat.

  Yeah, I finding myslef Loving Heather but she is not the same person i feel inlove with. she is different. I'm not in love with her anymore. I still keep some picture because she was my longest relationship and the first for alot of things for me... even my first love. I will always love her... but the real question is, whould i ever take her back... I don't even know if it would work out if i did.

  This month and a half has been emotionly drainning.

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Written about Tuesday 2005-09-13
Written: (6286 days ago)

After being so mad at heather tonight because she is pushing her friends away just like she pushed me away... i find myself not loving the same woman anymore... and i feel confort that there is someone else in the same boat as me now. So now... i love heather but i feel that she has changed... and i don't like who she is becoming. Don't run from your problems... work them out but heather runs from them and doesn't look back. Its not the heather i feel in love with.

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Written about Monday 2005-09-12
Written: (6287 days ago)

P.S. yes its true. It was only way to escape... but it still came back. I'm sorry but we broke up and you moved on. I know there is no chance left, i have no hope left... that is why i have nothing to live for anymore. I am sorry that i am probly going to hurt you one last time, if i don't then then you are true to richards word that you "loved" me.

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Written about Monday 2005-09-12
Written: (6287 days ago)

I think this is the end... I'm done. Life is over. I have nothing to live for and i have nothing to give anymore. I'm sorry to everyone that i have hurt and everyone that i am going to hurt. Its just to much to deal with.


I want you to know that i love you and I am just to weak to fight this any longer. I'm sorry.

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Written about Sunday 2005-09-11
Written: (6288 days ago)

I am going to jail on Murder charges!


My sister has a black eye.... and i know who did it. It was Sisco, that fucking rat basterd. If i see him, i am so going to kill him. God, i can't take this right now.
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Written about Sunday 2005-09-11
Written: (6288 days ago)

So i just gave heather the last of her stuff. I still have a picture or two but i can't throw away everything. I'm going to stop trying to ride the fence between moving on and hoping Heather will take me back, I'm picking up my Heart and Moving on. 

I went home early last night from work because I was so depressed it was making me real sick. I was getting dizzy and wanted to puke. I still feel this way but I also feel a sword throw my throat, into my heart, out of it and into my lungs. It fucking sucks.

  Yeah, i made a promis to God to save myself until i get married....then i broke it ... then i made the same promiss... then i broke it again (yeah thats right, I did it because i didn't care anymore. I just wanted to escape the pain. And i escaped the pain with 6 other people. I became a Whore for a while).... then i made the same promis...now...i'm taking it back. but i'm not braking it, I'm just going back to my old ways... I am going to only have sex with the person i want to spend the rest of my life with. Yeah, It was sex. It wasn't Love like i want. I give a rats ass about sex, I want to make love to the person i love and want to spend the rest of my life with. Well, now i am moving on and i'm going to start looking for someone to move into my heart. So ladies, there is a sign out that says "rent to own"

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Written about Saturday 2005-09-10
Written: (6289 days ago)

Lonely
by Akon

Album : Trouble (2004)


Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

[Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya
Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave
]

[I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side,] coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
Feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz
[Ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin]

I'm so lonely (so lonely),
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

[Cant belive I hadda girl like you] and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, [what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right,] I
Really wanna[ make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely
] (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
[Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u]
[Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me
Be so happy but now so lonely
]

So lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, [I jus want u to call my phone], so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl [I didn't mean to shout], I want me and you to work it out,[ I never wished Id ever
Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy
] cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Mr. Lonely (Mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely


Good Times Bad Times
(Bonham/Jones/Page)

In the days of my youth, I was told what it means to be a man,
Now I've reached that age,[ I've tried to do all those things the best I can].
No matter how I try, I find my way into the same old jam.

*[Good Times, Bad Times, you know I had my share;]
When my woman left home for a brown eyed man,
Well, I still don't seem to care.

Sixteen, [I fell in love with a girl as sweet as could be,]
Only took a couple of days 'til she was rid of me.
[She swore that she would be all mine and love me till the end,]
But when I whispered in her ear, I lost another friend, oooh.

* Chorus

[I know what it means to be alone,] I sure do wish I was at home.
[I don't care what the neighbors say, I'm gonna love you each and every day]
You can feel the beat within my heart.
Realize, sweet babe, we ain't ever gonna part.

I Can't Quit You, Baby
(Dixon)

I Can't Quit You, Baby, so I'm gonna put you down for awhile. X2
Said you messed up my happy home, Made me mistreat my only child.

[Said you know I love you, baby, my love for you I could never hide]. X2
Oh, when I feel you near me little girl, I know [you are my one desire.]

When you hear me moaning and groaning,
you know [it hurts me deep down inside]. X2

Oh, when you hear me... [You know you're my one desire. Yes, you are.]

What Is And What Should Never Be
(Page/Plant)

And [if I say to you tomorrow. Take my hand, child, come with me.]
It's to a castle I will take you, where what's to be, they say will be.

*Catch the wind, see us spin, sail away, leave today, way up high in the sky.
But the wind won't blow, you really shouldn't go, it only goes to show
That you will be mine, by takin' our time.

And if you say to me tomorrow, oh what fun it all would be.
Then [what's to stop us,] pretty baby. But What Is And What Should Never Be.

* Chorus

So if you wake up with the sunrise, and all your dreams are still as new,
And [happiness is what you need so bad, girl, the answer lies with you.]

* Chorus

Oh the wind wont blow and we really shouldn't go and it only goes to show.
Catch the wind, we're gonna see it spin, we're gonna...sail, little girl
do do do, bop bop a do-oh, my my my my my my yeah.
Everybody I know seems to know me well
but they're never gonna know that I move like hell.

Stairway To Heaven
(Page/Plant)

There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know [sometimes words have two meanings.]
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
[Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.]
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And [my spirit is crying for leaving.]
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who stand looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, [it really makes me wonder.]

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
[Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
]
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's [calling you to join him,]
[Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.
]

And as we wind on down the road
[Our shadows taller than our soul.]
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

Badfish- sublime

How's it goin dude? Hey man where's todd? Tell Todd he can turn the radio back on. 
[When you grab ahold of me,
tell me that I'll never be set free.
]
But I'm a parasite,
creep and crawl, I step into the night.
Two pints of booze.
Tell me are you a bad fish too? (are you a badfish too?)

Ain't got no money to spend.
I hope the night would never end.
[Lord knows I'm weak.]
Won't somebody get get me off of this reef? 

Baby your a big blue whale,
grab the reef when all duck divin' fails.
[I swim, but I wish I never learned,]
the water's too polluted with germs.
I dive deep when it's ten feet over head.
Grab the reef underneath my bed. (underneath my bed). 

Ain't got no quarrels with God,
ain't got no time to grow old. 
Lord knows I'm weak,
won't somebody get me off this reef?

I gotta get ahead.

Ain't got no quarrels with God,
ain't got no time to get old. 
Lord knows I'm weak,
won't somebody get me off of this reef?

Wrong Way

Annie's 12 years old
In two more she'll be a whore
Nobody ever told her it's the wrong way
Don't be afraid with the quickness you get laid
For your family gets paid
It's the wrong way
[I gave her all that I had to give ]
I'm gonna make it [hard to live]
[Big salty tears running down her chin
And it ruins up her make up I never wanted
]

A cigarette, pressed between between lips
but I'm staring at her tits
It's the wrong way
[Strong if I can, but I am only a man]
So I take her to the can
It's the wrong way
The only family That she ever had
Is her 7 horny brothers and her drunk-ass dad
He needed money so he put her on the street
Everything was going fine until the day that she met me

[Happy are you sad? ]
Wanna shoot your dad?
[I'll do anything I can]
It's the wrong way
We talked all night and [tried to make it right ]
[Believe me shit was tight]
It was the wrong way

[Go run away if you don't wanna stay
Cause I ain't here to make ya', oh no
It's up to you what you really wanna do
Spend some time in America,
] dub-style

She'll give you all that she got to give
But I'm gonna make it hard to live
Big salty tears rolling down to her chin
And it smears up her makeup I never wanted

So we ran away 
And[ I'm sorry when I say
That straight to this very day
It was the wrong way
]
She took a hike
[Don't matter if I like it or not
Because she only wants the wrong way
]


[I gave her all that I had to give
But she still wouldn't take it, w'oh no
]
Her two brown eyes only get larger still
And it still ruins her makeup
I never wanted

Santeria - Sublime

I don't practice santeria
I ain't got no crystal ball
Well I had a million dollars but I'd
I'd spend it all
[If I could find that heina]
And that sancho that she's found
Well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down.
What I really wanna know
Ah baby
mmm [What I really want to say
I can't define
Well it's love, that I neeeeed, oh
My soul will have to-
]
Wait till I get back 
Find heina of my own
Daddy's gonna love one and all

[I feel the break, feel the break,
feeeel the break
And I got to live it up, oh yea huh
]
Well I swear that I

What I really wanna know
Ah baby
What I really want to say
I can't define.
That love make it go-woh
My soul will have to...

What I really wanna say
Ah baby
What I really wanna say
Is I've got mine
And I'll make it
oh Yes, I'm comin' up.

Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him
he best go run and hide
Daddy's got a new .45
And I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat
Believe me when I say that I got something for his punk ass

What I really wanna know
Ah baby
What I really wanna say
Is there's just one
Way back, and I'll ma-e-a-e-ake it, yeah
[My soul will have to wait] yeah, yeah, yeah, yeeea, yeah, yeaah

Distance - Cake

Reluctantly crouched at the starting line,
Engines pumping and thumping in time.
The green light flashes, the flags go up.
Churning and burning, they yearn for the cup.
They deftly maneuver and muscle for rank,
Fuel burning fast on an empty tank.
Reckless and wild, they pour through the turns.
Their prowess is potent and secretly stearn.
As they speed through the finish, the flags go down.
The fans get up and they get out of town.
[The arena is empty except for one man,
Still driving and striving as fast as he can.
]
The sun has gone down and the moon has come up,
[And long ago somebody left with the cup.
But he's driving and striving and hugging the turns.
And thinking of someone for whom he still burns.
]

He's going the distance.
He's going for speed.
[She's all alone
In her time of need.
]
Because he's racing and pacing and plotting the course,
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse,
He's going the distance.

No trophy, no flowers, no flashbulbs, no wine,
[He's haunted by something he cannot define.
Bowel-shaking earthquakes of doubt and remorse,
Assail him, impale him with monster-truck force.
]
In his mind, he's still driving, still making the grade.
[She's hoping in time that her memories will fade].
Cause he's racing and pacing and plotting the course,
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse.
The sun has gone down and the moon has come up,
And long ago somebody left with the cup.
But he's striving and driving and hugging the turns.
And thinking of someone for whom he still burns.

Cause he's going the distance.
He's going for speed.
She's all alone
In her time of need.
Because he's racing and pacing and plotting the course,
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse.
He's racing and pacing and plotting the course,
He's fighting and biting and riding on his horse.
He's going the distance.
He's going for speed.
He's going the distance.

She'll come back to me - cake

Last night I said to her
I didn't want to live inside a lie.
[If she wants him
More than she wants me,
Let this be
].
She'll come back to me.
[She'll come back to me.]
She'll come back.

[All day I wait and wait
To hear her footsteps on my walkway.
]
[She never came.]
She never even called.
She'll come back to me.
She'll come back to me.
She'll come back.

[Somehow I know it won't last.
Somehow I know it won't last too long.
]

She'll come back to me.
She'll come back to me.
She'll come back to me.
She'll come back to me.

I will survive - Cake

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
[I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side
].
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.

And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
[As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
]
I've got all my life to live.
[I've got all my love to give.]
I will survive.
I will survive.

[It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
]
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

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