Today is like everyday, boring dreary and lonely. I long for some type of excitement the god type of excitement really. Though i miss the days when drawing manga was the one thing that made me happy. Not saying i'm not grateful for what all i have,i'm. I just tired of the same old thing.The holidays are more dreadful b/c of how our family has drifted apart and deaths of my aunt and my dad knowing that nothing will be the same. I know things will get better the question is when?