so yeah i'm here in florida and a-school sucks but i have great buddies here. ^^ yayy.

so hey i managed a little time on the comp! i'm officially a united states sailor. and i wanted all my dear friends to know i miss talking to you all so much! sorry if i don't get to talk to you. just know i give you my love! i ship out to pensacola florida for a-school tuesday morning at 2 am. hoo-yah!

So at four my time i am getting picked up to stay at the crowne plaza (gorgeous place) and tomorrow morning is my induction and i leave. O.o on a plane which i have never done! Ooh!

Hiz people! I was wondering... Any suggestions of books i should think of reading? Anne Rice and Stephen King are a given... Any other authors i should consider? Please write in my guestbook and i'll give you a loving coolpoint!

Ok well in just over a week i'm leaving for the navy. If you guys want to end the relations with me go ahead and get it over with because once i've left i don't think i will be back on until at least 3 months later.

Is it weird to find part of yourself in the animes you watch? I was watching descendants of darkness and i noticed something that bugged me. Maybe i'm just being ridiculous, but my philosophy is when knowledge calls, search it out.

So i went to a concert last night and right now i'm beat. Opener was a band called the wiyos. They were interesting. The main singer played around in the audience before going onstage. Then willie nelson played, followed by john mellencamp. Last was bob dylan. My bro is a huge fanboy of his. I'm surprised he didn't wet his pants.

Ok so i'm back. If you care to know what i did all week ask. I don't want to bug y'all with the unimportant details you don't want to know about.

I have no idea where this came from, but i wanted to share it. It awakens the revolutionary in me lolz. Liberty or death, what we so proudly hail, once you provoke her, rattling of her tail. Never begins it, never, but once engaged, never surrenders, showing the fangs of rage. Don't tread on me.

Restful and worrisome, broken surprise. Tearful seduction, the loss in her eyes. Let me forget that lost soul i one was: my love has discarded me, the blood on my lips the last to give homage.

Ok for anyone who is interested: tuesday for my vacation i visited the jfk museum, and the holocaust museum close by. Wednesday i went to six flags theme park, thursday to an aquarium and a zoo, friday to a drive through animal reserve, and to this place with huge replicas of dinosaurs. That was my vacation.

Hey guys i won't be on much for the next few days. I have a family vacation. Hopefully i'll survive lolz. Miss my people already!

AWESOME!! so i went to my youngest niece's birthday party and it was at a lake with this really tall pier that you could ride a zipline down...or jump. I fell off the zipline once and hitting the water hurt! Then i became more daring and jumped off the pier three times. So terrifying but totally worth it!

This cut, no this one. Made by my own blade/ That one, scraped on a barbed wire fence/ yet that one, a perfectly placed nail/ no one sees me, no one cares/ my razor guided by my own hand scraped across my neck/ nice, how cool as i hold this crumbled glass/ no one notices, no one minds/ i grind it between my hands and blood soaks it/ i stuff it into my mouth / wow what a taste and i gag and spit out blood/ no one looks/ im not sure they can see me. / Nice to be worthless

Nymph of darkness, hear my plea/ forever do i destroy me/ beauty of shadows, know my call/ take my blade and destroy them all/ when the light fades, i know thy voice/ and beckoning, you give me my choice/ to turn tail, run, hide, flee/ or take your knife, and end my pain eternally/ queen of the night, i've made my decision/ to cut my skin with utmost precision/ to understand the wild yell/ and know my pains, know them well/ bring forward the child who loves all death/ and finally take my last breath

The fire of the spurned/ skin quickly burned/ at a loss for a soul/ the tears found cold/ a whisper of a shadow/ search for me now/ how to kiss me with bloody lips/ reach across motionless hips/ you see, right there, on my death-white finger/ the ring you gave me, your gaze shall linger/ you forgot my love of the hate-filled boy/ and then, forgot the death i employ/ Do you now hate the hand of fate?/ Sorry dear, for love it's much too late.

Another old poem of mine, lolz i will probably only put poetry in here now: i want to cry, i want to die./ and now the dreams have yet to fly / the fear and death, the pain within, / if i mask it, it still will win. / Do i kill it, Do i die?/ I wish to do it, but when i try,/ It fights back with all ferocity,/ now i live within this velocity.