today i thought i d just get my hair cut so....
i felt like doing it
i thought i d take a pic before i d do and here it is...
and well all of you should know how i look like now.... there you go ...
i just noticed
i m pretty different
i m just hopeful
this has so been a bad week
and i still aint done with it yet... well all i can do is just hope that the end will be pretty much alright
i ve noticed things happening around
but oh wells i dunno
today i so didnt feel like being me
and i dont think that doing anything will help right now
so i m gonna do what "sounds" best
its like 6:14
sun is almost starting to shine
arggh another day
need myself back
more than ever
hmmmm that was me
last night ...
hope you people like it xD just the days thoughts gathered lol
just another random pic of these socks ?xD loving em ^^
lsat night was brilliant
till the moment we had to go home xD
we had 3 bottles of ursus in one hour
it was ehm funny xD
the glasses were emptying all in once...
someone had to throw up and went to the balcony
luckily noone was passing the street xD
the other one that wanted to throw up went in the bathroom
apparently i got them both at their homes xD
i didnt know where they were but oh well xD drunk people have the 7th sense xD
the past days why do i just feel like breaking in pieces ?
is it just so right not to be complete ?
perhaps i wont feel complete anymore i dont know
and perhaps this break thing will help me
well i just know that things wont be the same anymore...
perhaps this is just another habbit ?
i m not in a good mood today
like i havent been for days
its not like i can help it anymore
i did my best the other days and things quite changed but ehm now ?
i just cant
so i think i wont be around till i feel better i mean its not like there is much sense right ? ehm anyway thought you should know... i m just tired of these days *sigh*
things will so be alright NOT
its been like one week since things have changed
and yet all i can do is think bout her
ehm feels just quite weird every single day
and there are always the same thoughts on my mind
and always thinking what if?
but then i just understand that all i can actually do is ehm ?
think of her
and yet i dont know if i can actually tell her ><
mad at myself perhaps
i really wanted to say these....
other than that ehm i m going to leave for thesaloniki next monday so.... ehm enjoy :)
just read the mood ><
dont expect replys
its been almost 3 months
i don't really am willing to talk about that but i guess i never will
i don't know why i decided to write these down i guess i just didn't wanna forget it
see i ve always not been understadable n i know that there wont be any people that may understand this
but oh well let me see
i dont mind i really need to write these down
see its been 3 months
n still i m lonely n not through it but its been 3 bloody months n i just can hardly wait ....
hopefully it ll just change n things ll get to be alright again but as long as i know its not just up to me *sighs* i need my life back
i guess i ll just make it n pretend to hug people until they get there.....
n then after that
*dont wanna mention what*
just days wouldnt end
1 hour seemed like 1 day
n billy had nothing to do
its been a week like that
n billy still hasnt found out what to do
so he thinks that perhaps going on vacation on the 22nd might help.
aint taken any decisions yet
just dunno what to do the whole day
i actually have tried all the games i got in my computer
even the ones that aint in windows
i have played all the mame games n reached that ends...
(mame is a pack of almost 1000 games that usually were played in slot machines)
proly not gonna b around much anymre
sorry me dear friends
just everything is gettin worse n worse
perhaps i shuldnt b here anymre
wanna feel betta soon *sigh*
what i ve kept on regretin this days is not grabbin the chance the other day
the real chance to talk to her....
been doin that a lot right?just like i just found out what it feels like i guess its just because people are like willin to help n everythin even though they cant
they do wanna but just cant
there are some things in life for which you gotta just regret i guess oh well all i can really do is b patient till the day comes....
(please dont make any comments about this)
love ya babe
i guess i ve just eaten sumit i shuldnt have....
i m great :) wheee
tummy hurts a lot
i think i m sick again oh well i just gotta be patient i guess
i may not b here for a while if i m sick....
if i m not ttyl ;)
gotta go nw though :/
yea right.... i m just sick
had a really rough day n just came outa ed
i miss her a lot n just wanna talk to her...
so i hope things are gonna b allrgiht again i m glad Costas (my cousin ) is around so i m not havin that rough time....
i m probably not gonna b around for a while... :/
you see i m sleepless
+ i got school again n thats makin it worse i cnt stand bein awake over there
+ i m missin her
+ i got my cousin 2 n cant stnad seeing him like that cause hez the only person i still got
+ we are on about to get grades n that means extra pressure from my parents.... for sure even though they are gonna b good they never get satisfied....
PS... something happend at the chess club i m in n i am not really willin to talk about it but i have to deal with that 2
yea right lifez crap again
my cousinz really depressd
hez talkin bout life n how depressin it cn b n how pointless it is ... so i m just gonna try to help him
if i m down i guess thz is gonna b the reason
he just was there for me through everythin so i think that i have to do this at least for him.... or for the person he used to be
yea emptyness ..... n loadz bout it i dont know how actually to say this just needin sum space...
something came up agen....