i need to change my last week..... i have to do it somehow or jst forget that all this happened
i dont really wanna say this but i promised someone that i would if anything like that would happen
so well i just am sayin
that i fainted twice the past 2 days both times at home n in front of a book
wanted also to mention that i have to do something and once again i dont have a clue what that something is....
yea oh well
today it was a national celebration over here...
anyway we didnt have school or anything and my dad came over and i saw him after 4 weeks O.o
the bad part is that he has been injured and well his eye has a pretty bad wound + something is going on with me i just cant stand sitting with open eyes....
OK there we go...
what happend 2day?
The doctor told me that my back will probably not be ok.I have to be careful if i want it to be heald n not to be operated.There is a slight possibility that i will b fine just with time.Yet its just that i cn hardly ever sleep anymore even when i m layin on my bed it hurts n it does so way too much.
I am close to a decision but there are some things that prevent me from taking this decision
1st I m afraid
2nd I m alone
3rd i dont feel ready
4th I miss her :/
i m writing this things here just in case that something happens.....
i cnt fuckin lay back it makes me hurt more n more as if i have a sword there.... :( stupid back
missin her .... :S
i ll try not to say dunno agen
jst thought u all shuld know ... my bro is sick dunno what kinda illness ( actually how its calld in english) its got to do with his ears ... thats all
gtg tho i wanna write sumit over here i dont ave time for even that xxx
today has been a rough day n yesterday an even rougher
right nw i jst am sittin over here but considerin what i ve been through well its been a lot
a lot number 1 :Billy hasnt slept this saturday n he went a trip on sunday mornin to participate in a chess tournament at the teenager-team he leads.....
he was dizzy coz he hadnt actually eaten for like 12 hours ....
A lot number 2:tho none of ya knew billy hasnt been home the past days n well he missd his dad homecomin coz by the time he was back (billy) his dad had jst left....
A lot number 3: 2day he went to school tho he was felin sick n like crap but noone seemd to care in the beggin they jst thought it was coz i didnt sleep well or something like that but most of my friends were checkin on me all the time as if i am sick or mad n that was pissinme off n i tried to tell em but none of em wantd 2 listen so now i m over ere i m depressd n i m missin her
A lot number 4:Yesterday i was playin agenist the guy i hate most (frm the chess players its jst the way he exists :P) anyway i won n we won by a score of 5-1 the only person that lost was the teenage girl of the team about who i ve already written on here (yea that story the tough part was that i was supposd to calm her down...)anyway its jst been a lot in thz dayz n now i jst am lost n tird n its jst really weird
i wanna jst sleep into her hands
Guess what... i m off
well as i ve always been i guess n i hope i m wrong this time but something happend 2 someone i really care about
its probably my fault but i dont actually know wtf it is
so i dont wanna hurt the rest the same way so i just leave
hope you all dont mind...
Yea yea things are agen going on like crap..........
2day i started school again n tomorrow i will get my books.... so i got a surprise in the mornin though.... it was a huge one actually
Billy goes to school with his cousin n his best friend.... n while walkin suddenly notices that the same girl that has been there for him has switched school and will be in his class from now and....
lifez kept on being a bitch
the thing bout my foot well yea my foot is crackd...
and well i m here once agen tird n really scared
guess what billy has been playing chess today all day long he was the leader in a 4 member team and the team went well *got second place out of 21 participants :P* n well i was playin as the best player next to me was the second one *livin here 2 n well i dunno i jst have seen HER (yea its her) for a long time.... n i dunno what happend and she was behavin in a weird way.... *well after 4 games we went 2 eat n well she asked me 2 be just us cause she would ask me something ... i said ok but well it was more like a date i didnt want it to be though :S n well then she thought that we would go out together :/ but well its jst the way life is and i dont know what to do anymore then well while leavin (i was with her n her lil sister in her father's car with her father in...) she askd when we ll date again n i was like O.o n i said i dunno i got a lot of classes *couldnt stand sayin the truth at this time coz well she was there for me i couldnt say it for her the same day that she helpd me that much
*guess what i m startin to think of fillin it up lol its probably coz i write a lot over ere :P*
Yea lifez being a bitch once again one thing just leadz to another.....
yesterday i went with some friends and played some football i cn barely walk now tho :/
i got my brain down cause i ve been in classes the past 10 hours n well things cn always get worse i jst dont hope they wont anymore :S
I just wanna ppl 2 know that if they dont hear from me again i will have passd out
I dont really wanna go on holidayz but that d be rude of me and me mom told me that if i jst dont go i cant stay here coz ma back is supposd 2 get betta if i jst go in the sea :(
after all i am gonna miss ya all -leavin sumday @ random :'(-
dunno whu is gonna read thz
i am harry
billy's away, he left home yesterday :'(
i dunno why he jst was pissd and startd runnin got outa home & didnt stop and slept @ a random place :(
hmmmz well i guess that was it
i hope u all had fun
Well here we go agen
i know that all i do over here is hurtin ppl by lettin em no me and stuff
so i think i am gonna take a break coz i need to think of many thingz
i dunno how much this is gonna last
if anythin goes wrong someone will log in and infom