Okay.....I am very unsure what to do right now....in this moment in time....My ex-Boyfriend Chris from last year (which am sure you all remember him). He facebooked me on Sunday, I didn't get the pm until just now. And this is what he said:
You're probs sat there in shock to see a message pop up in your inbox from me. You must be wondering why an earth I would do such a thing, knowing clearly I sent you my farewell only about 7/8 month ago.
It has taken me a while to pick up the courage to message you.. this is the best I can come up with, as my vocabulary of words are pretty limited.. if it were you typing this sort of a message you'd come up with something 10 times better ( & yes incase you're wondering this message is all about me apoligising & begging for your forgiveness, as a matter a fact i'm literally on my knees whilst i'm in the process of typing )
Anyway here goes...
I'm sorry Michelle, I am truly sorry.. i'm pretty much putting all my heart & soul into saying the word. I am very aware that the word sorry is not often enough.. in this instance for your forgiveness.
I feel really bad from my behaviour towards you last year. The behaviour that ultimitely led our friendship to a breaking point. Since then i've been full of regret & hurt. It feels like i've had a air rifle aimed at me & been shot at. I have nothing now.. no life.. you, sean & rachael were all I had as friends. I miss you all so much.. even abigail.. & the cat.. forgot his/her name.
Anyway back to my apoligy ( I'm still on me knees ) You guys were great, probably the best friends i've had. It felt like a second home being in amongst you guys. I went through a difficult time the year before I met you. I didn't realise how lucky I was so much had changed so quickly in a short period of time. And now I have just thrown it all away & I feel so hurt by it...
I'm really, really sorry Michelle.
I really hope you can forgive me & give me another chance.
What the fuck am I going to do? Dose he want to be friends? Or does he want to be my boyfriend? Fuck knows!!! I NEED HELP!!!!!
off to bed :) see ya all when I wake up :)
Hey everyone :)
It's my day off college, so I'm going into college help tutor two class mate. They need help with there Tourist and in return they will help me with Spreadsheets! :D
Sorry for the rant everyone, I just needed to get that out. You don't even need to read this, I'm just being really silly.
I did not have a good day at all! I FAILED my It for Admin assessment! >.< I'm so angry at myself for being so thick! So I find out that I have to resit it in three weeks time which isn't good for me at all because I will have to catch up on a lot of work. I left the classroom a few times to go to the ladies room for a little cry because I felt that stupid and cause I was really upset. Now I have to explain to my dad when he gets home from work. He's going to tell me to work harder, to study harder and blah blah blah. I'm sorry I'm not as smart as my brother or my cousins! I just hate today so much.....
Hey everyone :)
I'm back at college tomorrow :) So I'll be mega busy like always, and on 23/1/12 I start block 2 of my course and you guys may never see me online on college days and non college days. The work load will be really piled on me, but if you guys need me or just want to chat you know how :) But just in case if you don't know please see the links below:
College Email: 0037321@border
Love Michelle!! :D
hey everyone :)
well i'm staying at [**Yummy**Mummy**]'s house another day because Scotland is on RED alert for high winds >.< Seriously Bawbag just doesn't know when to buggar off! lol!
Anyway I'll be hopefully going home tomorrow :)
2011 is coming to an end and would like to say to all my friends all over the world that I love you all! It's been a tough, busy, crazy and filled with laughs, so bring on 2012! Lets hope for the best in 2012! :D
I just found ou last night that my Auntie Romona died.
Have a fucking great New Years everyone!
Hey guys :)
I have to say this now because I won't have any time to do it in the morning.
I'm going to Grans 24/12/11 and I'll be back on 28/12/11. I may not be able to get online because my Blackberry is acting up again >.< And it's annoying. So if you need me then Facebook me or Tweet me or email me :)
Happy Holidays everyone! :D
Hey guys :)
I'm going to be mega busy over Christmas and New Years Holidays.
20/12/11 - Last day of college! :D
21/12/11 - Clearing out my bedroom (and that will take hours and hours >.<)
22/12/11 - Going to see Breaking Dawn with [Fierce_Raaaaawr]
23/12/11 - Packing for Grans
24/12/11 - Travel down to Grans in Macclesfield
27/12/11 or 28/12/11 - Travel back home :)
29/12/11 - Travel to [**Yummy**Mummy**]'s House for New years
3/1/12 - Travel back to Kelso
So yeah....best way to get me is via Facebook or Twitter :D
Had such an amazing time with [**Yummy**Mummy**],Sean, His parents and the girls! :D Wish my trip had been longer but och well I'll see them at New years.
Also, I've only been away for the weekend and I come back to find that I had 81 messages on the Council Forum! Seriously, guys? I've only been away for a few days and you all chatter like women but when I'm online the forum doesn't get used much. You all trying to say something? XD LMAO! But I did get some laughs and smiles from the comments ^^ Cheers for the amazing giggles I got! Love ya all <3
I have no idea if I'll get to see [**Yummy**Mummy**] this weekend cause of the mother fucking snow! >,<
Hey Everyone :)
I won't be online this weekend cause I'll be visiting [**Yummy**Mummy**] because I need to give x-mas presents to her and her family :) But if you really need me get in touch with me via Facebook and Twitter :D
Sorry I haven't been on much this week. I've been busy with course work and I've got my daddy's flu. Evil Daddy!!!
YAY! Finished all my Tourism work that need to get done for Monday :) Finished all the work I needed to do in WP. I just need to finish off stuff in Employability and get the marketing mix essay done :) But all in all I had a very good day :)
This means I don't need to go into college on Saturday which means I can finally get started on re-vamping the Swearing contest! :D It's about time I got around to it lol XD Gonna spend all Saturday working on it, it's gonna be hard work but it's gonna be FUN! :D
So once I get a week where I don't have as much work to do I'll start on the UK Slangs and Terms wiki-page :D
So hang tight everyone *big cheesy grin*
Well am off to do some research for my comm class :D I'll be back later :)
I slept in! :O Not good cause I missed ma bus, so am getting the next bus to college and I'm not sure when I'll be back online. Keep an eye on my facebook to see when am on my way back home :D
Right I've got a ton of work to do tomorrow and I need sleep but I'll be online at my normal-ish time lol Night!! :D
OMG! Today was so shitty *sighs* I was chain smoking all day at breaks, lunch and after college because that is how bloody stressed I was. I have for activity’s to re-do for next monday, plus I have to do a 500 word essay on the Marketing mix for tourism (thankfully there isn't a time limit on it ) and that is just for my tourism class. I have to do research for my comms class but I have to wait until next week to find out what the research is for. It could be a powerpoint, report, essay or whatever! I have a tour and interview at the Smokery this Thursday or Saturday, I still haven't heard back from the smokery.
I have a very busy week....I'm worried what tomorrow will bring....*sigh
Just found an Anti-smoking wiki-page that made me LMFO!! XD No offence or anything but I smoke to take my stress away and plus I LIKE smoking :D