[It was just my imagination.]'s diary
Murder books and the face in my nightmares
Blood and tears and the enemy's right here
Sickened, broken, blood shed, murder you're children
Torture, treason, never falling out of war
Standing on a broken glass!
Sing my angel, life has slowly slipped away
Killing fields and I'm starting to miss you
Poronograph's all I got for a bedroom
Sickened, broken, blood shed, murder you're children
Torture, treason, never falling out of war
Standing on broken glass!
Sing my angel, life has slowly slipped away
Life's so fragile a revolution taking place
Bullet shells and famine and stab wounds
I wish I could do more than write you
Sickened, broken, blood shed, murder you're children
Torture, treason, never falling out of war
Standing on broken glass!
Sing my angel, life has slowly slipped away
Life's so fragile a revolution taking place
Take a little dive into the shallow or spy what do you see?
I see the tortoise and the hare in a rat-race and it fits like a glove under my sleeve, just wait till then.
Their heads are the heaviest in operation,
he has still not lost imagination.
I can hear him mouth the whole ending -
just wait till then.
We marys had ourselves a ball.
Oh, yes we did.
We marys had ourselves a ball,
I must admit--
Hang us those limbs hold no virtue.
Those told to hold: project on my cue.
Whether a he or a she, put your mouth where your money is.
Are the birds of a feather that clever?
If I knew I'd keep locks, that's a given, just wait till then.
Their heads cast shadows like skyscrapers.
Small enough to feed off the lesses to put it all into perspective with definition.
Oh, take a gander the bigger they are the harder they fall.
Not needy you'll see, not needy
and I come with open arms over trees.
Not needy you'll see .
Listen to my proven guarantees while you're rolling up your sleeves,
beatin' on the chest.
But we can keep it in a jar when it's comin' cats and dogs for days.
Do you hear the concrete guarantees?
And what they've done for you they've done for me.
Written about Thursday 2007-06-28
Written: (6145 days ago)
And thats Ana and the baby.. I blame her.. Yay me for putting blame on someone..
FLIPPERDADDY says:
wot u luk like?
What It Do?? says:
like a person
What It Do?? says:
hahaha
FLIPPERDADDY says:
thnk god. i frt u mite of been a donkey
Written about Saturday 2007-06-16
Written: (6157 days ago)
WOo... a great night and breakfast.. damn kili I didnt know you were into that.. (SOOOO PLAYING) X]
I was described by steven! woo..
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wah.. lookit me.. im rambling again..
we shot the piano player says:
not at all
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not at all?
we shot the piano player says:
you werent babbleing in the least
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*nods* I so was
we shot the piano player says:
you were shareing very important things!
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I was?
we shot the piano player says:
yes, verymuch so
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what was so important about it?
we shot the piano player says:
it really helps me to get inside your head
we shot the piano player says:
you are somewhat of an enigma to me
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oh really?
we shot the piano player says:
absolutly
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and whys that?
we shot the piano player says:
your so dark and brooding
we shot the piano player says:
and bright and cheeful
we shot the piano player says:
all at the same time
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I like that though..
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no one knows what ill do next.. its like a surprise..
we shot the piano player says:
i love it
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soo.. what did my memories let you know?
we shot the piano player says:
like many
we shot the piano player says:
you have a bad past
we shot the piano player says:
its taught you how dark the world is
we shot the piano player says:
yet
we shot the piano player says:
somehow you've managed to keep a bright outlook on life
we shot the piano player says:
always optimistic twords the future
we shot the piano player says:
like traped between a black past
we shot the piano player says:
and awhite future
we shot the piano player says:
like your always suspended in a twilit state of mind
we shot the piano player says:
i can save i've never met someone quite like that
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*lightly smiles*
we shot the piano player says:
just such a strong spirit
we shot the piano player says:
it makes me proud to call myself your friend
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*smiles and looks down*
we shot the piano player says:
i swear i speak the truth
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ya... I know.
we shot the piano player says:
i
we shot the piano player says:
i hope that didnt offend you in any way
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you didnt hun...
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just made me think about myself is all..
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to honestly tell you.. I think the way I am is a good thing..
we shot the piano player says:
it's a sad thing
we shot the piano player says:
it it most certainly has made you stronger
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ya.. a lot of people tell me that.. georges words were "even though you let people walk all over you.. you stronger then most could ever want to be".. its a good thing to me I believe..
we shot the piano player says:
no question
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*lightly nods*
we shot the piano player says:
*smiles* your definatly one to learn from
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I guess so...
we shot the piano player says:
well i know so
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you do?
we shot the piano player says:
i'm certain
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im not so sure
w
e shot the piano player says:
you shouldnt doubt yourself
we shot the piano player says:
that is a rather bad chink in your armor
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me.. armour?
we shot the piano player says:
self doubts are cracks in your spirit,
we shot the piano player says:
your far to stong to allow cracks
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*lightly smiles* everyone has self doubt...
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I cant help it
we shot the piano player says:
but your special
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*lightly blushes*
we shot the piano player says:
you have a greater soul than any self doubter I know
this is how stupid danelle and I are..
D="Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
me=Xx||CantYou
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
he was saying a bunch of crap and i jus said "damn ur so violent. i think i like it"
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
hahaha lmao/
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hahaha nice!!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yea
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
koo well big dawg
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ya
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
ye
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
u kno i love ya
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ya ya I know..
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
fine well
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well what?
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
idk
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lol okeis
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yepo
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*poke*
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
oww. *poke*
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*poke poke* dont say oww you heffa...
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
what? me a heffa? girl u b crazy
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I know..
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
i aint no heffa.
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tigga puhlease!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yo, youz no one ta tell me dat
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girl..
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
shu,
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*snaps* oh no you din'int
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
oh yes i did
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oh no you din'int
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
oh yes i did girlfriend
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oh no!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yessir
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haha nice
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D real nice!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
i kno, its cuz im a G
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shure
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
forreal cuz im Ballin
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TO THE LEFT!!!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yeah well im poppin ma colla
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good..
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and some height to ya!
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jp
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yeah i kno its good. no its great
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sure!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yeah
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
fo sho it be
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yeeea yeeea
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damn!! people keep telling me they wanna slap my ass today!! wtf is up!?
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
oh yeah ash i forgot to tell u i wanna slap your ass today
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
jk
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
jk
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ha! thanks..
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
jk
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ya ya I know
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
bored
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haha
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
ash dont be s.illy ok? u need to wrap ur willy
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ok ok ok ok ok danelle I wont be silly, ill wrap my willy
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
yeah u betta
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I will
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gots ta protect myself with all them girlies ya know..
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im a player...fo real..
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
u'se a playa n ima G.
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fo sho'
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
word
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*nods*
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
*flashes gang sign* flashes gang sign*
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BIG PIMPIN'!
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
Fo Sho Dog
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
im bored B
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me too D
"Ballin'" l.o.l. .... Ya No Creo En El Amor says:
cuz im pimpin
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yeeeeaa yeeeea
Written about Wednesday 2007-06-13
Written: (6160 days ago)
to much pretazone!(and benadryl from earlier) wooo....... *holds stomach* it actually kind of hurts though.. and I have a fever... and I'm shakey, lightheaded and achey... I cant see well... my throat feels funny, It hurts to breath.....mom
Here ya go killa.
...Ever wake up knowing that something was goin to happen?...And not a good something?..Th
for which part was it ki?
Eric eric eric eric eric.... mmmm...... Dani's bf
Hung out with him, THREE days out of six months and I cant stand him.
(three days are: new years eve, one night when I was hanging with dani and he came over cause his ex was going to his house and when we went to the fair.. count em.. how many?.. yeah three right?)
So today.. I went over to Dani's 'cause I mean.. we ARE best friends and everything (9 years)
and I hadn't seen or heard from her in a month 'cause he didn't want us talking to eachother..(fuckin controling bass tard)
So she tells me stuff.. which I can't repeat..
But then he starts textin', askin' what we are doing and shit like that 'cause hes a whiney pussy (there I came out and said it!)
So Manuel (my other best friend, Hes like my brother, known him just as long) starts textin' Eric just to talk and maybe get Eric to shut up 'cause me and Dani were talking.. So Eric calls D and she tells him she cant really talk 'cause I was over.. which I was SOOO fine with thank you..
so he texts her again saying "What the hell is going on over there? you sounded suspicious on the phone"
*rollseyes* so I grabbed Mannys phone and texted Eric
"its ash.. we are just talking.. so stop being so insecure cause we aren't doing anything wrong ok?"
Yes it may of come off a little bitchy but i was already mad at him for things D had told me..
so he goes
"Dont you dare talk to me like that fuckin little girl, you best mind your own fuckin business"
it made me laugh.. like literally I busted up then I told him it was my business 'cause shes my best friend for fuck sakes..
so then he started blowing up Dani's phone telling her "that fuckin little bitch needs to mind her own business" and that I'm pissing him off
I told him that if he had a problem with me to tell me instead of bitch at Dani
I would have SO much more respect for him if he came to me with his problems twords me. Even if he was cussing my brains out, screaming and yelling at me.. atleast he came to me instead of dragging D into the middle of mine and his arguements..Yo
so I told Dani.. that I wasnt afraid of him and to tell him that next time he starts talking about me (She said he talks about me and stuff when she mentions me) and if he wants to bitch to someone to bitch to me 'cause I'd like to hear what he has to say.
I really really really wanna just tell the PMS'ing insecure asshole that he needs to stop being a prick.. and if he lays one more finger on Dani (she passes out.. and he'll slap her till she brusies) that I'll cut his head off...
I TOTTALLY agree with dani's father at this moment..
I intensely intensely dislike eric with a passion of a thousand men >.<
he just upgraded himself from
"Stain boy!....super-
to "Captin Stain Boy!....super-
*shakes head* hes...hes lost it..
My dad has named himself stain boy
"Is that a spot? Is that a spill?
No! It's Stain Boy!....super-
Able to leap tall hotdogs in a single bound"
and people ask me why I'm weird?????
AHHH FUCK ME SIDEWAYS!!! *flails arms* I GOT IT UHH HUH!! *dances* doo doo dooo doo dooodoooo DOOOOOO doo its mine.. thats really selfish, I know.. but its mine.. its mine uhh huh.. thats right..
*dances* na na na na na nana anannanananaaa
ive started another bottle collection
so far ive got!
jack daniels
boones farm
novosta
smirnoff
gatonegro
b&j
barcardi
and coke... yay coke
oo and this new pretty bottle of imported sauza gold
and Malibu coconut rum...
And Mikes hard...
*dances more*
*Waves arms around like an idiot* HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY LOOK HERE!!! *Bright pink and green neon arrow with confetti*
guess...what..
My descent is the story of everyman
I am hatred, darkness and despair
My descent is the story of everyman
I am hatred, darkness and despair
Evoked and entertained through centuries
Wrathful and sullen -- Dormant still
The ferocity pervades everywhere
Waiting to be released at last
Hear my offering
Ye bastard sons and daughters
Share my sacrifice
Share my sacrifice.
My descent is the story of everyman
I am hatred, darkness and despair
My descent is the story of everyman
I am hatred, darkness and despair
Reconcile not with the fear of the snake
But embrace it as your own
Inject its venom into your veins
And replant the seed that gives growth
Still shrouded in mystery
Until you arise above perception
A veil of ignorance is in motion
Continuing throughout generations
(A veil of ignorance is in motion
Continuing throughout multiple generations
Let me be the one that deliver you from the deceit
And back into perfect accordance with the laws of nature)
The snake is notoriously tempting
But the snake is fair
What is worse than not knowing?
To live or disappear?
The ferocity pervades everywhere
Waiting to be released at last
Hear my offering
Ye bastard sons and daughters
Share my sacrifice
Share my sacrifice
Alrighty peoples.. tomorrow at 4 im gonna leave till next tuesday.. ill come on everyonce and a while but im gonna try not to..