[Five Fatal Flaws]'s diary

60446  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-03-21
Written: (6602 days ago)

[//SLAVE\\]

She....she made my life,
Now I'm okay, I'm alright,
My life was one big catastrophy,
Now its on a sjelf like a trophy,
She wiped away all my tears,
and destroyed my fears,
Deep down i love this girl,
And i want to be in her world,
But i guess i bite my lip,
And take all of this shit,
And pretend like i dont want you,
But inside i know, that i really do,
Tell me I'm a pretty boy,
Treat me like your brand new TOY,


[SHE IS MY NEW MASTER,
SHE CAN TEACH ME...FASTER,
IM JUST SLAVE TO HER,
I JUST DONT WANT TO HURT,
I KNOW SHE CAN KEEP ME SAFE,
SHE CAN KEEP ME AWAY FROM HATE,
MY PRETTY GLASS ANGEL,
THE ONE LESS PAINFULL
]


Why dont you put me to the test?
Why dont you fall to sleep on my chest?
(Love is an obsession just like my regressions)
Can you be my dominatrix?
Wont you play your dirty tricks?
(You dont understand i need you)
This is a new chapter in a book written by you,
There are only answers i choose,
When we have nothing to loose,
(So obscene my life hazed in green)


[SHE IS MY NEW MASTER,
SHE CAN TEACH ME...FASTER,
IM JUST SLAVE TO HER,
I JUST DONT WANT TO HURT,
I KNOW SHE CAN KEEP ME SAFE,
SHE CAN KEEP ME AWAY FROM HATE,
MY PRETTY GLASS ANGEL,
THE ONE LESS PAINFULL
]


There is just one last thing i need to tell you,
Its just that i dont want to loose,
You're the one that i need,
I am not asking to plead,
But i really need you to stay by my side,
For everysingle night i cried,
I guarrentie i will cry 10 times more,
From this my eyes get sore,
And you faze out of my life,
Which now is one big lie,
IM NOT FUCKING OKAY WHEN YOU ASK ME,
IF YOU WAS HERE THEN YOUD SEE....


[SHE IS MY NEW MASTER,
SHE CAN TEACH ME...FASTER,
IM JUST SLAVE TO HER,
I JUST DONT WANT TO HURT,
I KNOW SHE CAN KEEP ME SAFE,
SHE CAN KEEP ME AWAY FROM HATE,
MY PRETTY GLASS ANGEL,
THE ONE LESS PAINFULL
]

60218  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-03-20
Written: (6603 days ago)

[x . s i g . x]

Hello mother, and my father,
This is your son, without laughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Are these scars obvious for you too see?
What else should i fucking do?
Should I turn this up for you?

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!

The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast!

All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give

I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you said
The silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast

59777  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6606 days ago)

[If only you were lonley.]

I saw you there walking through our school,
I tried to catch your attention, i acted a fool,
(I hear you voice echo through my life, and your acting like its all alright)
I wish i could just speak to you like i do with my friends,
I wish i was with you, right to the fucking end,
If you walked alone i could ask for your number,
If were alone i would'nt have to wonder,
Alone and shaking on a step in the town,
Then the both of us could sit right down,
Hold you close and fall to sleep with you in my arms,
I would wonder, just quite how far....

[Coz if only...you were lonley,
Then just maybe, you could save me,
Then just a chance, i could take off your pants,
Then just a miss away from another kiss,
But i guess you've heard it all before,
And i want you on my bedroom floor,
And i will be there for you...
And i will be telling the truth,
Coz if only
If only,
If only you were oh so lonley
]

Would it be weird if i want a hug of you?
Would you be scared if i told you what i wanna do?
Would it freak you out if i asked you on a date,
Would you call it off if i was 30 minutes late?
Would it be sweet if we made out in the rain,
Would you be scared or would you call me insane?

And i feel that we would suit each other,
I could make you laugh inder my bed cover,
Please let me speak and i swear ill make you laugh,
And if i dont, get your brother to kick my ass,
I maybe 2 halves insane and somewhat over strange,
But if you give me 2 minutes i could explain,
I could get a kiss of a beautiful girl,
Just for those 20 seconds i am lost in my own world,

[Coz if only...you were lonley,
Then just maybe, you could save me,
Then just a chance, i could take off your pants,
Then just a miss away from another kiss,
But i guess you've heard it all before,
And i want you on my bedroom floor,
And i will be there for you...
And i will be telling the truth,
Coz if only
If only,
If only you were oh so lonley
]

If you were just a little less popular,
If your dad owned a cheaper car,
If you wernt so dam beautiful and out of my league,
Well then just maybe we could see,
So is there any chance, that you'll look past?
And see right through me,
So i can watch my TV,
Without a single worry, and thought about love,
But right now i am flying like a dove,
I am soaring right now and every time i see you,
If only if only, only, if only,
I wasnt so fake a phoney,
If only i could hold you,

[Coz if only...you were lonley,
Then just maybe, you could save me,
Then just a chance, i could take off your pants,
Then just a miss away from another kiss,
But i guess you've heard it all before,
And i want you on my bedroom floor,
And i will be there for you...
And i will be telling the truth,
Coz if only
If only,
If only you were oh so lonley
]

59762  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6606 days ago)

[Would you care?]

These late night talks just kill me
And then i cant wait just to see (You)
I know im fucking weird,
Coz insults are all i hear,
Welcome to the start of OUR LIVES
I've had so much time to think on this lonley drive,
I love the way we talk until eight or nine,
You better tell your parents, but i dont wanna make 'em mad
Dont you love the late nights me and you are gonna have?
This could be weak, but i wanna make it last,
Can you hear me breathing, its getting so fast,
I wanna fall to sleep on your bedroom floor,
I could swear i love you, but you will always more,

[Would you care if i didnt know what to say?
We can sit and talk all night, sleep in the day,
Then when i am with you, suddenly i am okay,
I cant belive we feel exactly the same way,
I swear i love you so much,
We met each other only by luck,
Can we be together? Then we can fuck,
I love you more than i love the air,
BECAUSE I NEED YOU SO BAD, I SWEAR
]

Do you remember the notes in class you sent to me?
I've kept them in a box, and one you might see,
I've gave it a lot thought on how to tell you this,
Thought of a way to slip you a kiss,
You wouldnt believe, the wait was long,
Coz every single lyric in this stupid song,
Just a hidden message of how i really love you,
You might realise that, if you read this through,
And if i sung it to you, would i be lame?
If i told the truth would you think im insane?
If i held you, would you try and back away,
Or would we hold hands for the rest of this day,
Do you care if i don't know what to say
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that There's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

[Would you care if i didnt know what to say?
We can sit and talk all night, sleep in the day,
Then when i am with you, suddenly i am okay,
I cant belive we feel exactly the same way,
I swear i love you so much,
We met each other only by luck,
Can we be together? Then we can fuck,
I love you more than i love the air,
BECAUSE I NEED YOU SO BAD, I SWEAR
]

Did i tell you i loved you today?
Do you care if i don't know what to say?
When you fall to sleep tonight, can you dream of me?
When i shake it off like its okay, can you see?
I really cant belive theres someone there who cares for me
There is a hidden message in my pointless lyrics,
There is a hidden message in these stupid poems,
There is a hidden message in how i speak to you,

[Would you care if i didnt know what to say?
We can sit and talk all night, sleep in the day,
Then when i am with you, suddenly i am okay,
I cant belive we feel exactly the same way,
I swear i love you so much,
We met each other only by luck,
Can we be together? Then we can fuck,
I love you more than i love the air,
BECAUSE I NEED YOU SO BAD, I SWEAR
]

59504  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-03-16
Written: (6607 days ago)

[I wish you...]

I wish i could touch you,
So many things that i wanna do,
I wish i could hear your voice,
But all this isnt down to choice,
I Wish i could smell you close,
and i could take off your clothes,
I wish you was here to love me,
Coz all i want to do id sit and see,
I wish you felt the same way about me,
Coz i feel like people are acting mean,
I wish i could tell the truth to you, (I wont lie)
And i wish sometimes i had more things to do (Like dying)
I wish you were so much closer (I feel like crying)
I wish you was right here not there (At least im trying)

[I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS YOU HAVE TO SEE,
SO MANY THINGS I HAVET TO SAY TO YOU,
SO MANY THINGS WE HAVE TO DO,
I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
I WISH THERE WAS A MORE SIMPLE ANSWER,
IM SIRE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS ASK HER,
I WISH YOU WAS RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW,
THE ONLY PROBLEM IS, I DONT KNOW HOW,
I WISH YOU LOVED ME LIKE I LOVED YOU,
]

I wish i could touch you,
So many things that i wanna do,
I wish i could hear your voice,
But all this isnt down to choice,
I Wish i could smell you close,
and i could take off your clothes,
I wish you was here to love me,
Coz all i want to do id sit and see,
I wish you felt the same way about me,
Coz i feel like people are acting mean,
I wish i could tell the truth to you, (I wont lie)
And i wish sometimes i had more things to do (Like dying)
I wish you were so much closer (I feel like crying)
I wish you was right here not there (At least im trying)

[I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS YOU HAVE TO SEE,
SO MANY THINGS I HAVET TO SAY TO YOU,
SO MANY THINGS WE HAVE TO DO,
I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
I WISH THERE WAS A MORE SIMPLE ANSWER,
IM SIRE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS ASK HER,
I WISH YOU WAS RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW,
THE ONLY PROBLEM IS, I DONT KNOW HOW,
I WISH YOU LOVED ME LIKE I LOVED YOU,
][I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
AND THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS YOU HAVE TO SEE,
SO MANY THINGS I HAVET TO SAY TO YOU,
SO MANY THINGS WE HAVE TO DO,
I WISH YOU WAS, SO CLOSE TO ME,
I WISH THERE WAS A MORE SIMPLE ANSWER,
IM SIRE ALL I HAVE TO DO IS ASK HER,
I WISH YOU WAS RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW,
THE ONLY PROBLEM IS, I DONT KNOW HOW,
I WISH YOU LOVED ME LIKE I LOVED YOU,
]

59494  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-03-16
Written: (6607 days ago)

[A letter to God]

I have give it a lot of thought,
And my thoughts had changed from before,
i had my many questions, answered by my sin,
I was tempted by satan, and i had to give in,
Im am so sorry, can i repent for these wrongs?
I dont know quite how, so ill do it in a song,
I fucked it up last time, and made a fucking mess,
But now i come clean and i have to confess,
I did it all wrong, so many fucking times,
I am so sorry, im gonna break down and cry,
You cant say i didnt, coz all i do is try,
I WISH I WAS PERFECT, AND I WISH I WAS FAULTLESS,
I WISH I COULD PASS EVERY SINGLE TEST,

[So dear God i am asking please, to forget,
Coz all the things i did, i do regret,
Lose or i get left behind,
Coz i sit alone and cry,
Wishing id fucking die,
Because nobody is there anymore,
Lying here on my bedroom floor,
And i have lost all sense of faith,
Because my life is filled with hate,
I am falling right into hell,
This is a letter to god himself
]

Here it is it is for you,
Can you read these words?
And tell me what hurts the most,
These strange voices run through my head,
And they wont leave me until im dead,
Can i shake this off before i die?
Its the the answer, the question, so i try?
Not like i have to do it all again,
but is it really worth all this fucknig pain,
I felt my life collaspe,
I wait here as my time ellapses,
I fell from the edge of reason,
I planned it all like treason,
And as i say sorry,
I WISH I COULD TELL THE TRUTH,
AND I WISH I COULD SAY IT TO YOU,

[So dear God i am asking please, to forget,
Coz all the things i did, i do regret,
Lose or i get left behind,
Coz i sit alone and cry,
Wishing id fucking die,
Because nobody is there anymore,
Lying here on my bedroom floor,
And i have lost all sense of faith,
Because my life is filled with hate,
I am falling right into hell,
This is a letter to god himself
]

56979  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-02-28
Written: (6623 days ago)

[The Girl From My Dreams]
This is the life of a very beautiful girl,
More beautiful than the whole world,
She looks so sad in my bedroom mirror,
I know I love her, every time that I see her,
But why is it that she lives in her own little world?
Here she is, the most beautiful girl,


Why the hell does she all ways live in fear
Her mascara was smeared because of tears,
I am always here, I listen and hear,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
I know that it’s this life she’s hating.
She is just too dam perfect to loose?
Promise me that if you love me too you won’t abuse,
I love the fact you don’t look the same everyday,
And I love the way your hair is in that different way,
But it never seems to matter, you always have the right thing to say…


This is the life of a very beautiful girl,
Who shook my black little world,
She looks so sad in my bedroom mirror,
I know I love her, every time that I see her,
But why is it that she lives in her own little world?
Here she is, the most beautiful girl,


How many people would wait and stay?
Just so I could speak to you everyday,
How did it end up this way?
But know that I will never run out of things to say,
I know that it’s this life she’s hating.
She is just too dam perfect to loose?
Promise me that if you love me too you won’t abuse,
I love the fact you don’t look the same everyday,
And I love the way your hair is in that different way,
But it never seems to matter, you always have the right thing to say…


This is the life of a very beautiful girl,
Who shook my black little world,
She looks so sad in my bedroom mirror,
I know I love her, every time that I see her,
But why is it that she lives in her own little world?
Here she is, the most beautiful girl,


Your clothes never seem to be the same each day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way,
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the life of a beautiful girl,
Who cried a river and shook my whole world,
And while she looks so sad in my bedroom,
I absolutely love her,


This is the life of a beautiful girl,
Her pretty face she hid from the whole world,
And while she looks so sad and lonely sitting on those steps
I absolutely love her,


This is the life of a very beautiful girl,
Who shook my black little world,
She looks so sad in my bedroom mirror,
I know I love her, every time that I see her,
But why is it that she lives in her own little world?
Here she is, the most beautiful girl,
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL IN THE WOLRD

She is the girl of my dreams,
Who hides in the violence of her screams,

This is the life of a very beautiful girl,
Who shook my black little world,
She looks so sad in my bedroom mirror,
I know I love her, every time that I see her,
But why is it that she lives in her own little world?
Here she is, the most beautiful girl,
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL IN THE WOLRD

53330  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-02-03
Written: (6648 days ago)

[This is My Life]

This is my life,
This is my crazy life,
These are my words,
These are my fucked up words,
This is what hurts,
This is what hurts my mind,
This is what i find,
I find deep inside,
These are my eyes,
DIluted from the dope,
This is my blood,
Black from the smoke,

And i cannot cope,
Unless i have you near,
And that is what i fear,
To live without you,

THESE ARE MY WORDS
This is my life,
Without you, It burns,
We need to speak,
Part of my everyday,
Wish we was closer,
Wish you loved me more,
These are your ways,
And you left me days,
My life,

All these are my dreams,
I can hear your screams,
This is what hurts,
And i know it burns,
These are my hands,
Doused in blood,
Drink from these cans,
Just like you should,
And if i could,
I bring you to world,
And if you listened,
Id tell you all my secrets,
All my lies,
Look in my eyes,
And tell me what you find,

THESE ARE MY WORDS
This is my life,
Without you, It burns,
We need to speak,
Part of my everyday,
Wish we was closer,
Wish you loved me more,
These are your ways,
And you left me days,
My life,

Im screaming in pain,
Lost, im insane,
These are your insults,
Get stuck in teeth as they grind,
This is what you think,
My mind starts to sink,
And then you find me,
Wish i could fix it all,
Dont let me fall,
Give me your hand,
And save me now,
Before its to late,
Love, me
And never show me hate,
These were my words,
Hoped you listened,
As i fade

THESE ARE MY WORDS
This is my life,
Without you, It burns,
We need to speak,
Part of my everyday,
Wish we was closer,
Wish you loved me more,
These are your ways,
And you left me days,
My life,

52531  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-01-28
Written: (6654 days ago)

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41519  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-11-08
Written: (6735 days ago)

Well, yay for me....i found love......[♥How About Tomorrow?]

Hey who likes the song?
Taste of Blood

Drop D, Detuned 1/2 Step
Db Ab Db Gb Bb Eb

h - hammer on
p - pull off
b - bend

Riff 1
|---------------|
|---------------|
|---------------|
|---------------|
|-14------------|
|----12h14----9-|
                                       
Riff 2
|--------------|--------------|
|--------------|--------------|
|-5b------6--3-|-5b-----------|
|-3b--5---4--1-|-3b--5--------|
|-----3--------|-----3--------|
|--------------|--------------|
                                       
Riff 3a            Riff 3b
|--------------| If 3a doesn't |--------------|
|--------------| sound right, |--------------|
|-4b------5--2-|  try 3b   |-4b--2---5--2-|
|-----4--------|        |--------------|
|--------------|        |--------------|
|--------------|        |--------------|

Riff 4 (Bass Transcribed for Guitar)
|-----------------|
|-----------------|
|-----------------|
|-----------------|
|-----------------|
|-0-0-1-0-0-1-0-1-|

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