So finally I descide to actually serve God with all I am, completly... This won't be easy, but hey when has anyone known me to do anything easy?

The only thing you are falling for is your own stupidity.
Blinded by feelings a heart can only realize what seems...
Only an idiot can be so easily fooled for he is trapped within his own stupidity.
I like you, no I like you.
A rollercoster of pain and idiocity.
Ignorant Dead...

Sometimes when you feel like you are losing everything... Everything is fine... You don't feel that bad, cause you know all of the suffering isn't suffering at all. You don't feel pain cause it is for the better. Sometimes you think your parents say that just to mess with your head... I guess I sound like mine now. Thing is, I am proud that I do. I know somepeople I am gonna hurt and others will just be sad. I know however that it is all for the best... All of it. I really need to find something new, someone, somthing, some feeling, or even life. I love all of you around me, I hope you know that, but if I tell you enough... It is not a lie as much as you would like to think so... *Smiles* Goodbye...

In 10 years...


What will I be 10 years from today?
Will I be what I dreamt, will I have it my way?
Will my friends still be my friends and was what they said truly meant.?
Or will I just stare at familiar faces that went.
This is my prediction to my future.
Hopefully it turns out happy not past scripture.
In ten years i'll see many of my friends dreams come true.
I'll see doctors, cops and firefighters that help people through.
I will see many a person that changed their courses to be happy.
I'll look at some of my closests friends and smile as I hear them called daddy.
This is what I see ten years from today.
Will I still be here or off over there a stray?
I want to be able to tell you that I will be me.
But who knows in ten years what they themselves will be?
Will I be a father with sons who look at me for teaching?
Will I be like my old man on a pulpit preaching?
So many paths that one can follow.
We can point and say they might be this, but inside ourselves we find a hollow.
Not because there is emptyness inside, but because inside there are questions still to be answered.
This leaves us blind to what we will be and our future to us is blurred.
Worry yourself to death not.
Remember yourself and the battles you have fought.
All you can do is hope for the best.
Safer it will be if you let time do the rest.