Poems

Behind The Smile

Behind my smile
There is a cloud
Behind my eyes
Are tears of pain
In my heart
I'll always know
Who I long to be with
Is you

I see in your eyes
There's pain
I see in your eyes
Theirs Sorrow
You beg
and cry
To be with me

There are reasons
My reasons
Why I can't
and wont
Be with you
Although
I love you
And you love me

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Alone

I smile to hide the pain
To look like i am fine
To be strong for you

I cry when I am alone
When noone can see me
When I am in darkness

I harm myself to avoid all hurt
To get rid of this mental pain
To avoid the tears from falling

I drink to avoid the truth
To feel numb
To forget myself

I didn't say
I was scared
I was hurt

I am scared of darkness
Feeling as if I am not safe
Dreaming of my past

I am scared of life
Feeling suicidal, depressed and hate
Not showing the pain I feel

Hurting myself to feel better
Not sleeping on a night
Hating myself

I am scared of you
Your in my nightmares
My flashbacks and my memories

You haunt me in my mind
You scarred me mentally
You made me hate you

My abuser
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